i simply love today!! - THE RUSH

THE RUSH yes the rush
hahaha... basically was lazing around at home this morning
skipping lecs n finally got my feet up to sch for eemac lec n pmi lab
after tt is e beginning of some excitement...

due to my husband's project discussion late dismissal,
we had to rush down to meet my beloved dareius
haha... we actually got ourselves running once we step foot at the tampines interchange toward the mrt direction
tt was so fun... the rush for a special meeting... hehe felt really happy abt it even though we were really late
was enjoying e rush

n then we met up with darieus at kembagan
we took taxi to ps for the movie 'alone'
we were late and had to change show... sad... but im happy with it wahahahhaha cant watch horror movies
finally decided on 'rise of the blood hunter' some gory show
guess wat.. my husband still not up to age for tt show...sigh
then we gotta change again...
my husband n i were discussing with dareius n his fren to decide on e limited shows available last night n had decided on 'alone'
in the end, we changed to harry potter
it's a lost to all 3 of them coz they watched it more than once
as for me, its a pleasure to watch it for the 1st time!!! wahahaha


u muz be wondering y this day to watch n y with them...
1st, dareius's fren got 3 complimentary tix to watch any show
2nd, it's a free show for my husband n me... so y not?
3rd, complimentary tix is only for today
4th, i missed dareius


n how exactly did they got those complimentary tix?
haha.. they bought 3 tix from the machine
on the day itself, they found out tt there was a duplication of those 3 tix when they entered the cinema
so they complained to e manager... ya...
poor manager got scolded n gave them complimentary tix
e funny thing is tt...
we got the tix for 'alone' but my husband n i were too late to meet them up
so we had to change the tix to other shows..
we had to ask the manager to change it.... aiyo..
so malu lah.. scolded him n yet ask for a change... so paiseh
haha...


overall...
I ENJOYED MYSELF
SO HAPPY!!!

i think i noe y person C is not e one

i've been thinking hard n searching deep
to understand myself better in the bus today...
person C is a good guy as i've said...
we were childhood frens when we were younger...
the thing is... he's really got wat most gals want
most of the gals in my church commented that hu ever were to be his wife will be very fortunate
indeed... even i too think so...
he has the quality...
but.. it cant be him for me...
i do enjoy my time with him
it's juz... due to tt incident happened when i was in the age of 12
i fear getting into relationships..
i tot i had gotten rid of the memories but i was wrong...
it did change a large part of my life... it really did....
i cant be like how all normal gals act at home n in front of ppl
i admit... i hav been masking myself in front of every1...
can u believe it? i acted nth happened for the past 6 yrs!!
6 bloody yrs... i've masked myself in front of my family n frens!!! wow...
carmen, im sorry i told u this dark secret so late..
i dun wanna share it with too many ppl.. u noe right?
n i hate to tok abt it
tt incident changed my whole perception of 'ppl'
n person C cant protect me...
he is too bz with his stuff im afraid he wont hav time to protect me from the others
he is too soft with ppl he respect... he cant protect me...
i noe i'll bump into 'dangerous' ppl as time pass
dangerous ppl meaning ppl hu only aim to satisfy their desires with any means of action
i think i need a guy that would respect n protect me..
think i noe now...

new recruit !!! how sick!!!

hmph... dumb dumb supervisor... argh...
now i noe its possible to work both ways there
argh... irrtating... he muz have blocked my entry for the other position.... ah...
idiot... heck it


eye bags cant be hid by make-ups alone...
wahuhuhuh... so sick... juz learned tt today... haiz...


anyway... y is person a still bugging me?
he's been calling me this whole night..
how irritating... how.... annoying...
im so afraid to go online now... manz... tired...

oh my...

im not trying to boast or anything but...
this has been a hell of a wk
have been working on projects n had to slp late at night coz my bros r using the com for their own entertainment
n then comes the 3 people i've mentioned in the old posts... u noe the A B n C
yes... all 3 were contacting me all of a sudden..
wow... so weird...
okok, back to project

im trying my best to finish up my task for this project even with the headache i m currently feeling
taking break
but... juz when i was abt to finish up 1 of the sentences
my mum tokked to me abt family matters..
wow... wat a great timing... but i had to listen...
it's also very important
n then.. in my mind i've decided to go for job hunt if there's any time i can fork out
Ooosh! constance muz jia you

random stuff this wk

monday afternoon...
went shopping with husband at parkway..
we got this sasa voucher tt looked kinda interesting..

take a closer look at it
notice the serial no. ? haha... interesting right?

it's a real sasa voucher
didnt noe we were so lucky to get such a serial no.
haha


n then i was pretty impressed with the way meiting had her kfc chicken with this amt of chilli

its a lot of packs lah!!!
if im not wrong... around 10 packets of chilli

wed night
i decided to go for divo diva meeting for arts festival
wow.. really met pretty good singers there...
im blown away by some of their voices... wow... its really... wow
shud i sing or shud i play keyboard?
2 of the singers were hoping i would sing after hearing me singing a duet with them...
haha... its for fun.. but.. shit lah.. dunno which 1 is more slackier... hahaha
n according to the director of this divo diva organisation
he wanna make it big in a sense, become a well-known vocal club for the unique voices...
ya.. guess he watched too much Singapore idol...
hu noes.. it might come true...
if it does, think i'll be proud to be the keyboardist for them... wahahahaha


n as for today...
i was 1hr 15mins late for class this morning.
tutorial some more... presentation some more...
haha.. can u believe it?
in the end i managed to mark myself present n do the presentation somewhat smoothly
hehe.. wat to do... not enough slp from last night wat... slept around 2am? lesson at 8am this morning is juz crazy lah...
pluz i really tot lesson was at 9am... haha...so blur
anyway,
its my mum's bday today!!
i had my piano lesson after sch, picked the cup cakes from my husband n meet up for dinner with my family...
hee... really enjoyed the family bonding over the table
after tt, my mum got me a pair of shoes

not really sure y...
she's always saying im lack of stuffs...
stuffs like clothes, shoes, make-up...etc


basically, she thinks im not 'gal' enough...
my bro's worse, they still think i behave like a tomboy
m i?
sigh... im trying to change k.... haiz....
n look at the time now!!!
so late!! was rushing my project till this late...
onli manage to grasp some free time to blog...
ya... very memorable to blog at this time coz...
look darrel... im not lazy loh... i do make effort in my projects loh...
n u r juz lucky ur pmi individual project got so high.. =.=
if onli i didnt forget tt dumb dumb part of the qns... argh...
anyway, tt's beside the point..
have been having bad headaches n dizzy spells lately
lack of slp? dun think so ba... i slp like a pig in the afternoon lah
hmm... but y ah?
recently had bad gastric pains
y ah?
hmmm....

staying in church...

didnt noe my presence in church could mean so much...

positively:

• comforting to others that im still around in this church to serve
• play either piano or bass when needed
• being e deliverer for my family n church
• e only portal church members can pass to know my family's well being
  
  
  

negatively:

• to assure ppl tt my family's debts be paid 1 day
• to tell others tt we r still surviving
• to show others tt we r still well to do
• to defend for my family

nat's problematic issue...

yesterday.....
in church, my cousin malvin shocked me from the back of my ears when i was so happily tokking to wendy, not noticing his presence
yes... i didnt scream.. i shouted... yet in front of many small kids waiting at their table for breakfast to come
oh my.... they themselves got a shock by my short shout
can't remember if any of them actually cried of shock

but im sure some of them were laughing ( ya... more like the male kids)
oh well... i think i miss bonding with the kids...
i wanna go children camp!!! (if there's any)

here's a pic of cui trying her best to look photogenic yesterday..
haha...

i've tokked to my wife abt certain matters... n..
i've come to realize tt nat's issue doesn't onli affect ppl in church
many ppl had already consulted me abt this matter n was hoping the 2 of us... meaning cui n me, to tok to nat abt it
every1 is worried abt her... wat is there left to do when i've tried all i could think of?
yes.. many r disappointed... many meaning not onli my age grp
nat, u told me u wanna experience things the hard way isnt it?
m i suppose to stand by u when things dun go ur way as planned?
i dun think so n i wont
yes.. im disappointed as well as angered by the things u do...
it had already come to an extend tt i could not forgive u even with our long history of frenship
y? is this all worth it to lose this frenship?
a large part of u hav changed
the most important part of u, which is ur heart, has changed as well..
i no longer noe u any more.. it is sad... a pity.. i would prefer to keep a good memory of this frenship then to let it grow bitter
n u say u r emotional? try understand how i feel then, for the many things u hav done
notice how i could laugh n joke in front of u, in actual fact, my heart weeps at the sight of u
im not in talking terms with u bcuz i dunno how m i to face u
yup... ur issue had set me a trial of forgiveness... but i cant let go...
im tired of staying long in church bcoz ppl around me would wan some updates abt ur situation
u see... there r so many ppl so worried n concern abt u..
hav u ever wondered y? hav u ever wondered if ur decisions were right?
i dunno if there'll be any day tt u'll read this post n ponder
all i can say is... im tired of ur issue tt lasted a yr... i guess its still going on

the RESULT

in the end...
i went for the bbq but not able to stay over
wat's e point man? left the house at 10.45pm
reached her house at 11.30pm
is there anything left to eat?
ya... i onli had bacon... oh well...
but!
she decided to come my house to stay over for the night
haha... n she did!!
we tokked a lot in my house n actually slept around 3am
wow... n we gotta wake at 6.30am to prepare for service...
man... im so tired now..
but its fun n worth it when jaclyn is flying off to australia tmr night
haha.. no matter wat, will still miss my childhood fren =p

wow...

had planned to buy stuffs today but bros told me to wait for a better discount
hmm. ok loh...

when out to buy stuff i need n...
i met tt bus driver again today
hav i mentioned this bus driver b4?
hmmm... anyway, he offered me tuition job
now i really wonder if i shud take it...
quite scared to accept it coz im not sure if its safe
im not close to the bus driver at all
i barely noe him in fact
but i need to earn ... sigh
all in all, i muz say....
God really provides!!! feel so blessed to be God's child although i havent been a very good n obedient child.. hehe


haha.... now my mum is actually tokking to jaclyn!!!
hahah... so funny... jaclyn trying her best to persuade my mum for permission to let me attend her bbq n slp over till tmr's service
wahahha.. so funny....
juz at my mum's side eavdropping...
haha...
my bro trying to persuade my dad now...
alamak...
wanna noe the result? can i go for her bbq? stay over?
stay tuned to find out...

okok, tts it for today... shall post abt tmr too =D

1 more thing

i was wrong in saying des didnt wanna go for lunch together
he did... he called me for it
but too bad i was already at sakae getting my food ready before he called
in the end, he didnt join us..
oh well..

i suck at being punctual for TPCO
was an hr late... didnt noe we ate luch for so long mah...
ya.. u can guess it, we talked alot
my husband n i then found good offers for vcds we wana watch!!
ya ya!!...
okok... since my income will be coming next wk,
i shall spend a lil for this wk
shall buy
1. 2GB m2 for my hp
2. vcd- CSI 2nd episode
3. vcd- My Girl (korean series)
4. vcd- Full House (korean series)
5. pay hp bills =.=


hmmm... will be playing piano as an accompaniment for yunguan's solo vocal part in 2 wks time
havent even plan wat style we shud use to make this dedication special
sigh... but im so honoured!!!
my composed song is gonna be sung in church!!
wahahaha... this is how it shud be isnt it?
m i not living my life to compose songs to sing?
muz make use of this weird talent mah
n becoz of my selfish inspiration spirit, i got no choice


by the way jaclyn
i really really wanna go for ur bbq...
but i'm being dragged down by my projects n coming exam
i really do miss those times when we played some funny race in my room, trying all sort of stuffs in discovery centre n staying over in ur house
i wanna go science centre together too!!!
sigh... guess i gotta wait for ur next return to sg
oh yah... dun forget my big big present ah!!! for x'mas n b'day
wahahaha...

waiting~

y is my husband late?

hmmm.. im still waiting for her to go lunch with me... wahuhuh...

stomache growling already..

oh ya...

btw, last night's tuition was fun!

in a sense, i enjoyed reading my student's compo...

haha.. so funny.. shall post it here

but its really problematic when i it comes to marking her compo..

its not even like a compo lah... more like a letter to me..

sigh... how to grade her man?

the most i could give is a weak pass

but she went on writing the score of a full mark at the top right hand corner... haiz..

how to tame this fellow of mine?

enough of last night

today, im so going musical!!!

going to do my exam prac in church's grand piano!!!

oooOOOsh!! muz jia you!!.. exam really coming very soon!!!

wah... so scared!

for once im scared of it... hehe...

n tonight will be cello!!!

how exciting!! so musical today!!

hahaha... gotta really thank uncle anthony for booking the piano for me...

n thank mr lim for the tango score.. hehe..

where's my husband??

im still waiting for her in the library!!

she said she finished lesson 30mins ago... so mean...

leave me here doing nth... =(

a horrific sms!! n a trip to gardenia~

can u believe it?
early morning i received an sms from des tt he dreamt of me last night
e very 1st sms for the day... and it had to be morning...
spoil my day man...
could he really be thinking of getting lucky with me?
ya... he wanna go for lunch on this coming friday
but i dun think i'll go if my husband isnt going
dun think he'll really wanna get back to me ba...
oh.. pls dun scare me

e day didnt get any better
darrel made me skip lec for mi project again...
sianz... yes darrel, i'm gonna post it on my blog so tt u can see it clearly!! =p
n then i head on to gardenia factory for a project visit
so fun!! so interesting!! but too bad....
cant take pics.. but.. i can post pics of how bored we r on our way to clementi

oh well... n i passed my pmi project!!! yes!!!
the project i've been crazily doing over sleepless nights got me a decent result!!
muahahah.... shall chiong for ob now!! OOooosh

chiong ah!!!

chionging for project again!!! wahahaha..
so late lioaz right? wat to do?
okok.. slping soon... very soon
wanna dota with my husband... coz she wans leh... argh
think gerald n wai got her attracted to it already...
but sunday was fun!! thx guys for the pizza n ur hospitality =p
argh... gotta wake up at 645am.. sianz..
okok... slp slp =p

shud i consider?

gerald u got a very irritating mouth
indeed there's a person c...
n this person c has been there for quite some time which i didnt notice
very confused right now... consider him?
e prob is... he's onli got 1 minor flaw which is agst my principle
more like wat i hope to see in a guy
oh God, help me with this decision...

short update

alright, abt tt piano performance...
i didnt play well at all...
not like usual where u ppl would sincerely give me good comments abt e piece i've played
i've screwed up many times... to many in fact
1st off is becoz i was really late for the programme
when i got there, i was e 2nd to play...
e 1 before me played very short pieces which left me no time to cool down n think abt my piece
gosh..


e other matter is tt
straight after the whole programme is over
my teacher came up to me n suggested tt i forget abt playing for exam
exam is juz 1 months time away n im playing in this unacceptabe way, she's not fond abt it
was totally hurt
n i wrote my tots abt it on tt bk... u can read abt it in the previous post
shud i or shudnt i give it up? i didnt give my teacher an ans


tru out e wk i couldnt hav a moment to think abt everything i need to think abt
so bz with projects at night... sch in the morning n programmes in the afternoon
yes... my life is exciting n i admit i ask God for it
but i didnt expect such an 'adventure' God would give me... wow
n i cant wait for breaks!!! hols!! vacation!!!
i admit im tired of this kind of lifestyle where u slp around 2am sch at 9am, u wake up at 7am, work at 7pm, n no time for a time of relaxation
exhausted is e word to be exact


but hey, thx for entertaining me during sch days u frens
im always thankful when u guys r around to juz slack with me in sch... haha
hmm.. shall give credits to wai lah... really thank u for helping me with stuffs in some ways...
gerald ah? nth to thank lah...wahahahhaha
my husband? need me say? thankful for everything! cant believe u can tolerate my supposedly ignorance n troubles
there r a lot more ppl to thank juz tt no point to lah...
this is a private blog mah.. they r not gonna read it mah..


my husband came to my place friday afternoon...
we had to do some shopping to store food in our house
n for tt, we were walking along this ile

it's so pretty..
if i ever gonna live in a bungalow i'll make sure my garden will hav this kind of settings...
of coz excluding the lrt rail n hdb flats around it.. haha


cello sectional is becoming more interesting!
think im enjoying it again
n yes yes... i was late again.. almost an hr late... hehe
but anyway, mr lim very nice to me now
he got me 'por una cabezza' by carlos gardel, orchestra score piece
oh!! so happy!!! ok.. beginning to hav good impression of him already.. hahaha
n tt dumb dumb mr lim made me fall off e piano chair when we were trying out tt score piece on the piano
make me look so embarrassed lah... my CO frens still shouted encore lah..
ya.. encore of me falling of the chair juz becoz mr lim's butt is juz too big. =p
n they even took a pic of me trying to get my hp charger plugged into the socket while mr lim discretely used chairs n tables to trap me in a corner with the socket
gosh... so crap dumb n funny... buay tahan... dunno where e pic go... haha
n guess wat.. this is wat we really do during cello prac!!! hahahahaha

in pain... how irritating

this juz sux...
had planned to go for lecs today n yet...
things had to cock up
i hate it when my time comes... if only...
nvm...


btw, abt wat happened e other day in bugis with my husband
i've already suspected tt it would end up this way...
hmmm.. go read my husband's blog if u got no clue of wat i m referring to
guess this shud be it.


n this is my lovely baby!! hmm.. think i've got lots of 'babies'
show u some...

Ya'An with her tongue sticking out. so cute right?



Jenna n me trying to get ourselves bz with sth on the table haha



n here's Jenna on my other baby. piano i mean. sweet isnt it?



ok, my 2 husbands... hee

tired...of...

wow... playing BRIDGE!!

BRIDGE!! not tt good cards but i like my 4 aces wahahaha..

wow...im quite surprised at how i can actually spend the whole of my afternoon n night juz by playing bridge yesterday manz...
think i broke my record!! haha...
hmmm... dunno how many rounds hav i lost e game
but hey u guys, its great playing it with u all
was actually playing with Marcus WaiHong Gerald n Gordon(is this how u spell his name? oh well) in the afternoon
went to my husband's place for dinner n then... bridge AGAIN with WaiHong Gerald n my husband
wow... ok lah... i had too much fun for a day lah.. ya.. end up 12am+ home hehe


wat abt today?
im juz waiting for the time to pass until its time for my piano performance
wonder how well can i perform even though im unsure of the pieces n hav not memorized it yet
all e best!
shall post abt it when i hav the chance
guess i'll be home late today again coz of darrell's chalet thingy. wahuhuhuhhuh....
then again.. shall do fast fast n leave
muahahhah...


good n late news
des hasnt been bugging me this wk!!!
he tot i got a bf! wah... im so glad man..
but i sure gotta say... these guys who r after me got no stamina 1...
haiya... i muz give credits to rui lah
so far, he's the winner in my list tt had the most stamina chasing after me
i cant believe im so tt ignorant to actually not notice him for 7yrs
ok... scold me if u muz
i think im weak in handling relationship matters moreover to even notice them
n i actually m still feeling bad abt it coz now... he's a changed guy
n i contributed to tt change.. wahuhuhuh.. how i wish im not involved
come to think abt it, sc n des onli chased me for... er... almost 2 months?
wat is 2 months to 7yrs man...
okok... enough of praising rui lioaz...

interesting day it is

wow... quite a no. of things happened today
pretty exciting... haha...
ok... shall structure wat im gonna say according to the time it occurred



early morning in sch
kinda got lost during tut lesson
received my eemac(accounting) results
n unfortunately, i juz failed
totally upset abt it n... think i overreacted
think im lost in my studies already... gosh..
dun wanna tok abt... it juz suck


was hunting for jobs again in the afternoon
my husband was with me to do tt hunt
realised tt e society is looking for full-time
so we stopped hunting n did some shopping
haha... went bugis for a walk
guess wat... sth really really interesting happened
hmm... since my husband didnt wanna announce it, then i shall not spoil her plan
sth unexpected happened when we reached bugis
amazing n i really felt kinda honoured abt it! haha
shall post abt it if it really comes true.... wahahaha
mysterious? neh...
juz keeping the blog happening
wahaha


after tt, i went to husband's house for movie "grease"
oooOOOoohh... love tt show
n was late for cello... sigh...
die lah.. i wanna break my constant record of being late =p
shall try again next friday


but....
its wat happened during cello sectional tt got me surprised
indeed i was sad for the day but i dun believe my acting skills deteriorated tt drastically
it's like i kept myself being hyper as usual n yet...
Wilson could tell im different from any other days...
he guessed it right... i was upset onli deep within
how could he tell? i dun understand
he said i looked different.. ya... perhaps i was wearing contact lens
but he recognized its not the appearance tt was the matter
how can he see tru me? we aren't tt close at all... trust me, not at all
aside from tt, im glad wilson told me my intonation on cello was quite accurate
haha!! tt's really good to hear
n cello sectional was fruitful today! wahaha...
plus... wat i dress today is it out of the usual self, me?
y even mr lim was wondering i looked nicer today?
fine.. im uglier on the other days

free enneagram test

i will never be the same again

i will never be the same again
i can never return, I've closed the door
i will walk the path, I'll run the race
and i will never be the same again


fall like fire, soak like rain
flow like mighty waters again and again

sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff

and let the flame burn to glorify your name


there are higher heights, there are deeper seas
whatever you do, Lord do in me
the glory of God fills my life
and i will never be the same again,
and i will never be the same again

job hunt!

ok.. i admit lah... i kinda like job-hopping
guess its becoz i havent found a job tt i quite like it...
oh well...

after quiting tt mundane job
its time to job hunt!!! yay
quite fun to hunt for jobs leh...
hehe... juz went hunting last night with my husband
really hope i can work in tt... gifts shop... issit gifts shop?
actually... i dunno... cuz they sell flowers as well as gifts n cards
but it seems refreshing
i wanna work there!! i wanna work in cd shops too!!
can smell flowers.. can watch movies while working...
wah.. hu dun wan.... i wan!!!
haha... okok shall post another entry another day or time..

day before yesterday > yesterday > today

baby Ya'An.. luv her lots!!
isnt she cute??


anyway,
shall start with friday!!!
dumb dumb gerald n wai hong nv come to my house for some fun
dumb no. 1 = gerald... hu came out with the crazy plan of playing dota together
dumb no. 2 = wai hong... funny fellow but couldnt come coz of production crew thingy
oh well... its ok, my husband n i juz enjoyed the MUDPIE
plus ps2 naruto game
plus movie "sawII" to watch
wahahhhaha... wat a fun day! yeah~
then i got cello... sigh...

yesterday juz wasnt my day...
overslept n made my husband wait an hr for me... sure kana from her
quitting our jobs was pretty easy
n then i was heading to church myself after tt
gosh.. waited for half an hr for my bus lah... n im so late
wat happened?
i kinda missed the whole band prac totally
they changed the time from 7 to 6pm n didnt tell me
still, i could only reach at 8pm... so... totally missed prac!
nvm... but i really thank God tt while i was waiting for my bus home alone
guess hu appeared to accompany me!
bert! haha.. he's so sweet...
he really really waited with me for my bus when he could hav juz cycle home for dinner
n God really noes how to tease my day manz
we waited for half an hr at the bus stop.. again
but i enjoyed his company... we seriously tokked alot
yup... juz when i tot my day couldnt hav gotten any better, i was reminded i hav frens
but.. my day ended late... i was still starving at 10pm coz food stalls were closed n i havent had dinner...
in the end, i ended up having fast food
guess guess wat i had!! kfc
n im amazed i didnt add a single gram this morning
oh oh... 1 more thing happened last night
there was this alright- looking guy boarding the same bus as me home
his eyes n mine met
n obviously i hav no reaction to him... but wat i realised was tt he kept looking at my direction
i sat a few seats behind him so he kept doing tt discreet turn juz to look back
to me, it was hilarious to see him turning so uncomfortably haha
but i kept my cool n tried to look clueless
then then... when its near my area, he was trying his best to check if i've alighted the bus by looking at ppl's feet walking to the exit
so funny... hahha
but no worries lah... he didnt follow me home... not a stalker.. phew
but it was an interesting sight when ur day doesnt seem to go ur way
ya... hahha ...still laughing while typing abt it=p


its youth sunday by the way
yes yes.. overslept again for service n was an hr late... again....
joined agpc service n decided not to sing for xian shi
wats really fruitful abt today is tt i get to tok to my teacher abt forgiveness
feels so blessed to hav her around tt i can consult her with any probs i face in life
forgiveness => let go => love
powerful... i wanna learn to forgive again... forgive tt some1 i so cherished
the other thing tt's fruitful is tt i've made some progress with my 3 piano pieces!!!
its gotten better... but i hav to hurry up coz i've onli a month more to prac
die.... muz chiong!!! constance jia you!