stressed i think

i'm feeling kinda lost right now..
feeling kinda stressed i think...
im not having good slps at night
hearing many rules n regulations, laws tt i've yet to uphold.
i do ask myself.. 'is the challenge too big for me to handle?'
yet left the question unanswered..
left myself to work all day n neglect my health
quite bad...

still it seems relationship probs r soon to be on my doorstep
dun think i can handle probs when im relationship
i mean relationships r unpredictable
so.. it's best not to have 1

sense trouble

think i'm still in deep shit right now...
on sat night, after working overtime waitressing, daniel the manager warned me to be careful.
he's regretted exposing every1's hp no. on the office board n now he's gonna keep it private.
y so is becoz he noes tt im popular among the guys at work.
even one of the chef got my no.
he thinks he got it tru the duty roster on office board. which i think so too...
too protect every1's privacy, he's keeping every1's no. to himself.
i can see the manager is quite worried for me.
he still remembers tt day when im suppose to take a bus home but i went to Carmen's house after work instead.
he took the opportunity to give a notice to every1 tt im attached. i guess tt's 1 way he's trying to help me.
still, he noes tt the guys on duty kept smsing me during work.
so... i dunno manz..
n on Sunday after much persuasion from e 2 managers Michael n Daniel, i decided to work Sunday morning shift
they threw me to the kitchen for cutleries cleaning... sad.. guess it's also to help the guys focus in their work.
plus, my hair was stubborn tt morning!!!oh manz...
the head chef took the opportunity to scold me for my messy hair. saying tt im thrown to cleaning cutleries in the kitchen is becoz im too messy to be seen by the customers.
yes. truly hurt by his words. but it may be true..
so.. i shall be careful the next time..

by the way, new recruit Valerie was working with me on sat night n sun morn. hehe...she's quite cute

aranda chalet?

2nd April 07 Monday

ok. honestly, i didnt really wanna go for this chalet coz i tot of it as a waste of time. ya noe, i can spend the time resting at home n of coz babysit.
still, i tot i really did owe Carmen quite a lot of frenship. i dun feel right not going since she wants to take this opportunity to bond with them.
n she wants to protect n take care of my health during chalet, like forcing me to eat more, so... hope it works.
i bet on it n went in the end.
this is the 1st day of chalet n the day i've decided to go for it.
we begin by playing jenga stacko game. pretty fun
had kfc n steamboat for dinner...
wat a waste, i couldnt eat much coz i was on medication since sunday.
ok, so... what we did at night?
we played this dice guessing game tt was featured on 'pirates of the carribean'. losers drink 1 pax
i lost pretty much n drank 1 pax + 1 pax + 2 pax + 1pax with sprite.
y 2 pax is becoz Daniel wanted yinshen to drink... but ended i lose coz yinshen bet tt i'll lose....
in the end... i lost. ya.. stupid...
yes yes... i got so called drunk... but wat does drunk means?
ya noe i can still remember exactly what was going on around me? odd isnt it?
yes, i vomited... but i was on medication. i wont get drunk this easily since i drank quite a lot this yr...
oh well, wat a waste



3rd April 07 Tuesday

yes, when walking with carmen down the downtown east route. just plain walking for no apparent reason.
n soon after tt, i head home to freshen myself up for tuition at 7pm.
tuition was kinda boring coz she felt bored listening to me teaching. maybe i was too tired to entertain her much.
terrible. the more i felt guilty coz she paid me after tuition. gosh...
now im stressed n pressured to rush her knowledge on pace with her sch.
went back to chalet after tt. haha... didnt noe stalker would call to ask for my presence in chalet.
back in chalet, we played 5-star game from 12am all the way till 5am+ haha...crazy right?
it's quite fun! n i lost again... had to drink 1 pax for the night. after tt, we talked ghost stories... thrilling but no effects on me. wasted



4th April 07 Wednesday

pack up time.
check out of chalet at 12pm n went to aranda restaurant for lunch. well...
felt nausea after trying out their main course for a set lunch.
part of the reason is becoz im not used to eating brunch straight after i woke up from my slp. another is coz im on medication. i havent been eating much lately yet on medication.
it's quite obvious tt the medication might have some reaction to it after consuming the starter.
then i just headed to Carmen's house for a rest before going home.
in Carmen's house, we were playing this love calculator game. haha..shan't go into details then... it's private =p
so..did a lil babysitting with Carmen in my house then we set off to sit in the ferris wheel nearby.
i was so shocked tt 1 token = $ 2.50
ferris wheel cost 3 token!!! so expensive!!!
u gotta be kidding... how irritating...
didnt sit in the end.
instead, we did a lil shopping in compass point.
yup.. tt's how the day ended
but online, suddenly ppl juz added me to their msn n friendster. tt's really fast.
i was like, smsing n typing on msn lah.
smsing u noe hu... dunno m i unreasonable enough to shoo him away.
but so far, at this point, i think i managed to shoo him away. having said this, im risking if there would be a day he would find out abt this site..
guess, i'll juz hav to improvise by tt time...