questionaires

well.. i figured tt i really have no idea wat to post today so i browse tru blogs n found myself interested in occupying myself with questions tt daryl had alr answered in his post

so... here goes

Starting Time : 10.20pm
Shoe Size: 6
Height : sadly 159cm
Where do you live: Singapore
Favorite Drinks: -nil-

Have you ever...
1. Been on a plane: ya
2. Fallen asleep at school: Ya.
3. Broken someone's heart: Ya.
4. Fell off your chair: aiya ya...
5. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Nope. crazy..
6. Saved e-mails: for wat ah?
7. What is your room like: filled with lots of instruments currently. 3 in fact. 3 big ones
8. The last thing you ate: porridge.
9. Ever had chicken pox? yes
10. Sore throat: ya but Not now
11. Broken nose: Nope.
12. Do you believe in love at first sight: not at all
13. Do you like picnics: ya

Who was the last person...
14. you danced with: Cant remember.
15. Last person who made you smile: my bro justin
16. You last yelled at: Cant remember.

Today did you...
17. Talk to someone you like: yup
18. Kiss anyone: yup
19. Fall sick: Nope.
20. Talk to an ex: neh dun hav
21. Miss someone: ya... i miss carmen
22. Eat: of cuz
23. Best feeling in the world: feeling contented
24. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yep. few
25. What's under your bed: silver keyboard
26. Who do you really hate: No one.
27. What time is it now? 10.31pm
28. Is there a person who is on your mind now? nope... thinking of slping already
29. Do you have any siblings? yup
30. Do you want children? Not at the moment.
31. Do you smile often? yup
32. Do you like your handwriting? yup
33. Are your toenails painted? yup
34. Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in? my bro's
35. What color shirt are you wearing now? black
36. What were you doing at 7pm yesterday? shopping in ntuc
37. You can't wait till: the coming of Jesus. life on earth stressful ah...
38. Are you a friendly person? should be
39. Do you have any pets? nope
40. Where is the person you have feelings for right now? Home
41. Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you? yup
42. Do you sleep with the TV on? nope
43. Have you ever crawled through a window? nope.. can try 1 day
44. Are you too forgiving? dun think so
45. Are you closer to your mother or your father? hmmm... not sure
45. Who was the last person you cried in front of? gerald. cuz he made me cry
46. How many people can you say you really love? A few.
47. Do you eat healthy? Nope. trying though
48. Do you still have pictures of you and your ex? no ex lah
49. Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? yes
50. If you're having a bad day, who will you most likely go to? pray. carmen n gerald. mabe bertwin too.. both my bros
51. Are you loud or quiet most of the time? moderate
52. Are you confident? nope
53. 5 things you were doing 10 years ago: I was 9.
1. I was studying in CHIJ katong primary sch,
2. only know to obey
3. tomboy then
4. dun wear skirts cuz i'll spoil them
5. blur
54. 5 things on my to-do list today:
1. do devotion
2. help out in church children's camp
3. piano lesson
4. slp
5. bring keyboard home
55. 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. go vacation with ppl ..heh
2. buy houses everywhere n rent them whenever im no using tt house
3. do things tt i have always wanted to do tt requires to pay cash.
4. give some cash away to even up some things
5. pay debts
56. 5 of my bad habits:
1. getting to independent
2. not eating well
3. not resting or slping enough
4. got too stressed up n i didnt noe
5. whine abt being a gal sucks
57. 5 places you've lived in:
1. kampong house. damn nice but dirty
2. singapore
3. 1 room in HDB flat
4. At chalets
5. master room in a terrace
58. 5 jobs I've had:
1. chalefare for kids central show
2. selling ice cream in anderson's ice cream
3. waitressing in aranda, prive cafe
4. waitressing in true blue cuisine
5. tuitoring

blading

went blading at east coast park today n bloody hell got myself on the ground so many times.

it's kinda pressurizing to keep up th pace with every1 else since they r all better than u in balancing.

but oh well, its ok.

few scratches shouldn't be a prob to a person hu is really scared of bleeding.

cant help it can i?

im greedy for my own blood, wat m i suppose to do?

lick up every drop of my blood tt got spilled? siao.. tt would make me a vampire alr

plus its unhygienic =p

come to think of it, i remembered how i got carmen injured

so now i wonder if its ok to actually ask my beloved husband to join me on skating

its boring to learn all alone.

shu han was a better pillar than gerald loh... at least she doesnt run away like gerald did

however, they improved so fast becuz they own their own blades...

no fair loh.. sianz...

n im quite certain tt my competitive character is being triggered by gerald, which i fear i might get addicted to

as such, i shall not own any blades n be a slow learner... save money too. wahaha

i miss my phone

so pretty right? so slick...
how i wish my bf can be like it..
y? cuz can......................................

- bring along with me wherever i wanna go (including toilet. can play music while i bathe! so cool!! n its not pervetic to even take nude pics of me loh... haha)
- smart. does the things i want it to
- has good memory 1gb ho!!
- can play games with me (countless times till i got tired of it and it will not complain.)
- slim. can keep it with me with whatever i wear
- reasonable weight cuz its so smart
- captures good memories with me
- makes me laugh with the funny faces it mutates...
- it has a softer touch tt knows exactly wat i want once i touch it. (eee... sounds wrong)
- cool character. (gives of blue lights tt is very attractive)
- it can also receive information tt i want from frens (bluetooth. haha...)
- it is bz onli when im bz.. (receiving calls of coz)
- it notifies me of things i do not know (incoming sms from frens r such important info tt i cannot miss)

meaning of names..

Spruce
christmas tree
spruce other meaning is to be happy...
enegise the atmosphere or people to be in high spirit..
also means to make onself neat n smart

Wesley

English evangelist and hymnist.

Gerald

a male given name: from Germanic words meaning “spear” and “rule.”

["Gerald: An Exceptional Lazy Functional Programming Language", A.C. Reeves et al, in Functional Programming, Glasgow 1989, K. Davis et al eds, Springer 1990]

Carmen

a male or female given name: from a Latin word meaning “song.”

one of the crew of a streetcar or the like, as the motorman.

(alamak... can be a guy also..)

Constance

no meaning found.. wahuhuh

L + O + V + E

L is for the way you Look at me

O is for the Only 1 i see

V is Very Very extraodinary

E is Even more than anyone that you adore

n LOVE is all that i can give to YOU

LOVE is more than just a game for 2

2 in Love can make it take my heart and please don't break it

LOVE was made for me and YOU

response to DaRyL

ok.. this response goes to show tt i've read ur post.

thx bro+in+christ for being concern over the matter ur sis is struggling with.

i won't take it as nosey...

or unless u preferred to be referred as nosey then i've got nth much to say... hehe

with regards to the service to God in church, i dunno if it is wise to serve 2 service tt does not have a break in between. some times i would wonder if it is ok to eat into my fellowship time with my brothers and sisters in church when i dun go for cells. it's not like i wanna skip or dread to go cell, their cell always clashes with my sch activities and it's really far from where i live. this would result in a lack of bonding with my family in christ. is tt a good thing? is it healthy? i m super unsure... i enjoy serving God. however, i do not enjoy being a solo in tt commitment. i yearn for a group to serve God together. used to a have band practices on sat but it stopped because ppl r not free due to work or army... stuff like tt is really demoralizing to the soul tt's drying up.

in this church i m in, i cant seem to see myself growing anywhere now. i'm stagnant at this level at this moment. to change to a church tt i may grow spiritually, i really wonder if i shud do tt because i believe there muz be a reason as to y God has placed me in this family, in this church and at this time. this church is somehow connected to my family so, to see it get corrupted day by day, hurts me yet disallows me to leave it alone. because of a simple reason = it's my church.

i'm just hoping to find my reason back in this church even though i may not be growing spiritually more.

the wake was held for my used+to+be good fren's mum. how can i not help much after 9yrs of frenship? all i could do was to stand there n listen to the service, eat, watch n leave. this matter has its complications on its own. its a frenship prob n i'm already lighten my grip on this frenship. in fact, close to losing it for not even holding on tight enough for it.

just for fun

Put your MP3 on shuffle, and write down the first line of the
first 20 english songs you hear.
The first line of the 21st song is the title.


title:

i know i stand in line until u think u have e time to spend an evening with me

i was so high i did not recognize
i used to get away with so much

there used to be a grey tower alone on the sea
lithium, dun wanna lock me up inside

u can do it
u n the moon are a beautiful sight to me
an apple a day

juz 1 on 1 tt's the way we do it babe
recently i've been
it's time to turn off e light
e 1st time...
rent on e 3rd floor, not wat we asked for

playground school bell rings again
I would fight not to ever fall too deep

wat's ur fav scary movie
maybe i could be better on my own
perfect by nature
could be ur eyes could be ur smile
if tmr nv comes
time

...

wanted to blog sth but had no mood to..

just got a new phone, c902 maroon, last sat n it kinda sucked last night

got my bro to get it repaired now.. got c902 black for him yesterday too..

was glad to see him happy then..

however, many things happened for the past 5 days..

had been going to nat's house for the wake and everything, since sat.

for 1, it makes me feel like im going tru a session on 'how to achieve mood swings'. reason being is tt, the bad news only came in on fri morn 12am and on the same day, im celebrating my bro's 21st bday. it kinda sucks cuz u dunno how u should be feeling. everything became so mixed up on 2 extreme ends.

for 2, i got a new phone on sat. the very phone i had been eyeing n wanting for so long n on tt same day, im going to help out in the wake at night. tried to make myself useful then but i guess shiyun n cui were much more helpful than i can offer.

for 3, church ppl totally missed my oresence becuz i was serving the 1st service. dun u know it's really sucky? no fellowship with every1 at all.. i begged bert to stay n play for 1st service with me n im super glad he did. only then i recognized tt i can only be alone n used in this church, in this manner. i have no life here...i'm saying im dying here in this church. asked God y have i been placed here n i still dunno the answer. to serve Him? i can always do tt in other churches. once again, struggling to stay. knowing tt im made a 'miss' in every1's activities. not an 'important' person anymore... or should i say not a 'wanted' n needed' person... afterwhich, i got pangseh by my bro in the afternoon, got some misunderstaindings with kookoo. but im really happy to see him at my house area tt day cuz my day was turning bad to worse. for tt, got him to join me in the wake thingy too. once again, got useless at the wake. i couldnt be where nat is becuz i dunno her well enough like cui does. most of my info was grabbed from cui. realized my worry for nat's family was needless, pointless n unwanted. i guess her day was pretty well managed when cui was around to make every1 her n her bros happy again.

for 4, went with my bro to the crematorium. had nth much to say to nat cuz i really dunno wat to say. she would most probably say tt my presence is already comforting enough but i doubt it is the case. felt more like a stranger. i leave it as tt cuz it's a day for nat n family. dun wanna make it worse... got my bro the phone n once again glad to see him happy. went studying in kookoo's house n found my phone is having probs reading my memory stick as well as carrying out a smooth conversation in a call.

it had always been in my heart to wanna dedicate a song to the Gay family. especially nat's Dad but i found no courage to do so cuz i dun wanna break down while i dedicate it during the wake
n the song goes...

'live' by celine dion

´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´

A Million Stars Light
This Beautiful Night
This Is Not A Night To Die
Let Me Sing And Dance
Beneath The Sky
I Have Such Love To Give
To Give
I Want A Chance To Live

Live
For The One I Love
LoveAs No One Has Loved
GiveAsking Nothing In Return
Free
Free To Find My Way
Free To Have My Say
Free To See The Day
Be Like I Used To Be
Like Wild Bird Free
With All The Life In Me

LiveFor The One I Love
LoveAs No One Has Loved
Give Asking Nothing In Return

Though This World Tears Us Apart
We're Still Together In My Heart
I Want The World To Hear My Cry
And Even If I Have To Die
Love Will Not Die
Love Will Change The World
LiveFor The One I Love
Love As No One Has Loved
GiveAsking Nothing In Return
I'll Love Until Love Wears Me Away
I'll Die And I Know My Love Will Stay
And I Know I Know My Love Will Stay

´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´´

yup, its suppose to serve as an encouragement to live on...

while i wrote this, i wanna try sth funny tts been done by liwei n shuhan
but shit lah... no phone to do it... cant try.. shall do tt for my next post

¨§ churchy wk §¨

wow..

sat, kookoo came to fetch me from home to pasir ris. n we were late to meet wai, marc n liwei there becuz my loving father bought us lunch before we could head out of e house... so now, finally some1 understands y m i always late for appoinments

anyway, we all went to THE PROMISE musical at clementi in NUS n i honestly thought it was good. efforts are all there to broadcast such a successful concert. though there was a lack in acting skills, still, e idea of the whole plot was decent, tactful n pleasant. they used real pony by the way! so amazing

n we start taking pics!! haha... more like i started =p

this is taken when we were assembly at the concert hall

ok... n then they started to dim the lights...

after that we went to ShuHan's church for the stayover movie marathon. wow.. they showed 4 shows.. Iron Man, StarDust, (dunno wat) List and KungFu Panda. i like all the shows!

the next day... couldnt help it. i was so dead tired tt i could almost slp anywhere. so wai kookoo n me had our slp at ShuHan's place in the morning. started slacking around there the whole afternoon till we all disperse from her house...

n this is how a depressed gerald looks like

cheated with a laptop

idiot kookoo....
how is it tt i got cheated n end up with a laptop? shouldnt tt be a good think?
i suppose its not in this case
so.. i shal explain the story...

basically, i was doing my proj at blk 10 bench with my groupmates
idiot kookoo then msged me to tell me ' think i will do lab into my lunch time... hope not'
so.. i understand tt he's got lots of lab work to do tt would cause him to neglect his lunch. thus, i didnt bug him to go for lunch or sth... instead, i went on my own with carmen... even though marcus asked me along to meet the others for lunch before i even decided to go lunch with carmen
hu will be there for lunch? i dunno actually...
onli when i m suppose to start work on my proj, i found no computers available in sch or in library... i decided to ask idiot kookoo if he brought laptop
indeed he did, however he was at the hawker centre, outside sch, for lunch when i called.. tt's like after i finished my lunch lah..
its like u got lots of lab work to do n still got time to go out of sch for lunch? right... very truthly indeed
alright, was pissed at this point n decided to go on my own search for available computers around.
tried my luck with the free access lab n yep there's 1 available...
got the motivation to start moulding my proj when idiot kookoo had to spoil everything
he left his laptop at blk 10 where i used to do my proj with my groupmates n told me to go collect it?
he made it like a choice to either leave the laptop there or take it, n im suppose to make the decision.
i could have just left it there but i didnt wanna let the laptop be the victim of this foolish incident, thus, i closed my files and went down to collect it.
guess wat? i saw his frens around it. Marcus was there guarding it. felt cheated..
tot there wont be any1 to guard it, and the laptop might just get stolen like tt, but i was wrong....
no choice, took the laptop and end up typing this entry instead of doing my report..


alright, let's review this whole incident again.


wat's with the laptop?
let's replace the story with a baby instead of a laptop. this time round, baby is different in terms of want n own. laptop is a want at tt moment. baby is owned.
the whole story will become very critical. baby will be the victim of an immediate disagreement of each other's actions. n baby gets left alone with some1 else's care, by idiot kookoo. n i'm left with a choice to leave it there or collect it cuz idiot kookoo said i have to make the decision. how can i not collect it?
y is it idiot kookoo can so simply leave his responsibility there? i dun understand... in the 1st place, it's his... in terms of laptop, its his n not mine...
how can???


wat's with all the busy-ness n yet go far out for lunch?
perhaps im being real practical here.. to wanna just go somewhere close or around for lunch if i noe i have things to rush n complete.
i tot its logical... to have limited time for lunch, you would wanna save time on traveling to a foodcourt. but i guess its different for idiot kookoo...



wat's with the treatment?
i muz come down to collect laptop? = submissive?
so i muz be submissive in this way.. n so i mustn't have any say for it as well..
n thus, im silenced.

=speechless=

1yr anniversary!!!

will just let the pics do the talking..

oh yeah..
ive posted pics...



this is during dinner


this is during our ride on bus to PS

i can post once again!!

i m currently using my bro's lappy to post this entry
well, i figured tt my pics will nv get posted if i were to use tt desktop at my living room so.. maybe lappy will be a good choice...
however, uploading pics still does take a long time.. goodness

=.= sianz.. pics r still not loaded yet.. argh...
oh yeah... pics r here now!!
oh darn... i cut the pics but couldnt paste..
in the end, i lost the pics.. wahuhuh... sucks

anyway, i kinda wanna go Attica for kc + st pats reunion..
the kc club sent a notice to meet up at Attica on 7th dec'08 n i really wanna go
wanna see all my kc frens.. argh... then again, im afraid i would have insufficient cash by the time i reach the month of dec.
it really will just suck if u got no cash to spend for a reunion party as well as an appropriate cothes to wear..
n wheres my pics!!!???

ok... they r finally here

this is a pic of us having our lunch break... cui's in the pic by the way

it's just tt the camera decided to cut her face a lil becuz she was a lil too ugly on tt part of the face... muahahha

oh yeah.. this is the jazzy mojito? or.. was it jazzy peppermint?

aiya... watever it is, its a drink i had at TCC, made by vivian, which i have posted abt it on my previous post...

eh... not bad leh... should try if u get the chance

n this is the... er... hmm... wat is this ah?

its a lil like shepherd's pie.. hehehe...

watever dish this is called... its nice.. from tcc too.

yah... i think it is called sth sth tofu...

crap

wahuhuhuh... i wanna post pics n i cant. bloody com so dumb now juz becuz my bro rebooted in last 2 wks ago

well, he rebooted it doesnt mean he installed programs to it... so.. its considered a dumby computer to me now

wahuhuh... cant post pics. so many things tt i wanna update with pics but i cant. argh..

went to tcc the other day with gerald. suppose to tok things out with him tt day but ended up having a 'party' of frens chitchatting over there...

ya.. there was marcus, liwei, vivian, gordon, waihong, gerald n me. ya... a lot of ppl

then the follwing day, gerald n me got invited to go escape in the morning with vivian n gordon...

couple r they or not... i wonder...

haha... shall see, muz watch show.. see how they dance into the trap of affection n lust for one another, n then... relationship blossom... wonder if it'll happen.. yay..

got show to watch!! haha

ooOOOoolaH Lah...

oh yeah..
i hav finally done my modelling!
alright. here's e website to view
http://nellyjoy.livejournal.com/76186.html#cutid1


this is my fav pic... haha... most natural to me i think

hey peeps, if u r bored, check out this website. quite interesting...

http://ecodazoo.com/

felt like shit in prive

this was wat happened last night at prive...


i tot my service was kind sucky last night bcuz i dun get to tok to any of my customers...
all of them were too bz with their conversation tt i couldnt cut in to ask for feedbacks...
so the night got boring especially its monday night.
not many tables were filled.
nvm abt tt
towards the night, we had mini wagyu burger for supper.
however, the chefs in the kitchen offered me red wine to taste it's richness n blah blah blah
so.. i tot it'll be a good idea to taste it since i have no idea how merlot tasted like
guess what? merlot actually taste good!! think they used unripe grapes to produce such wine
cuz the smell n taste was real fresh...
they let me taste another 1... cant remember the name of it but it was thick.
im glad tt i tried them cuz now i noe wat wine to push. merlot is good!
but here's the trouble, the head patissier esther saw the chefs n me drinking n tot we r having a party or drinking session
n thus told felix abt it n called chef derek abt it. [she's such a pain in ass when the chefs actually offered her some wine as well]
so now, i presume i shud be in trouble..
the chefs hu r working will be too...


sigh... then again, drinking a lil of alcohol does boost my energy
becuz, i've got class at 8am n i went on to work till 1am... not bad eh?
im sure gerald n wai didn't see much of me complaing abt tiredness after the drinking complaint

highlights of the month of october

n yes... i have been really bz working n working during this 2 months of hols. m also aware tt i have neglected a lot of my frens n especially family. but i guess these r some things i have to sacrifice if i need to be self-sufficient.

alright, back to the main topic of the HIGHLIGHTS of the month of OCTOBER

i had been working real lots, so here's a pic of some of the crew...

for ur info, irish gerald samuel n me r all in the pic respectively. we were doing our night shift till closing n had decided to take a pic of ourselves to kill time. as u noe, our night transport home to the east is always late as compared to the transport for west. argh... its irritating but oh well, cant really say much when we r already too tired to care. all i noe is tt the driver is really terrible in attitude. however, he's driving skills can really make a dream of flying cars come true manz...



by the way, this is just sth i tot it looked really pretty n worth a photoshot. this is done by pala, cappucino readied for a customer. i think the designs on cappa r really interesting. it comes out differently everytime u make it. so i always find interest to take a second look at the designs on the cappa b4 i serve. in this case, the pic made it looked like a one-sided butterfly on the cappa.


alright, this as the day when terence got fired, wai n gerald came over to my house to bake cake and also the day we dota-ed.

gerald n wai came to get me from prive after i finished work. as we walked to the train station, we saw rainbow. in fact, not 1 but 2! u can take a closer look at the pic. one is a lil faded.



yup, we headed to my house for some baking!! haha... hmm.. nth mucht o say actually. all i noe is tt im doing most of the baking lah... wahlau.. the baking time was wisely spent by playing dota with the 3 of us against AI. haha... we won for the 1st round n then lost terribly for the 2nd. after which, it's time to take a look at our cake. erm.. won't elaborate on the games part cuz tt's not the point



camewhoring!!
here's a proof of our work. see tt black circle thingy? tt's the cake. n it's not chaoda for ur info, it's just choc. the cake was left on the living table for cooling straight under my very big big fan connected to the ceiling. but i guess after eating my mudpie, the cake doesnt really taste chocolatey. i wonder why, maybe i got scammed... oh well... =p but so sad... even up till now, carmen havent even posted pics of her bday... so sad... wahuhuh



n here we r.. wai's in the pic too... he was there to help me stir the egg... ya...
i guess cooking n baking is not a guys thing. then again, i wonder what genders r those ppl working in restaurants as chefs. alright... dun mind me... im just blabbering nonsense...



gerald was just trying to attract attention...
can ignore him lah =p



a pic of us in the bus on our way to eh hmm... somewhere...



after all tt hardwork, we paid it off by having a great meal at miss clarity cafe with carmen on the day b4 her bday. so happy!



n the miss clarity cafe ppl gave this as complimentary. not bad, it's better than nat's. haha... but it cant be compared with her lah... she's got a grp of frens in church to celebrate with her, think its good enough.



ok, just random... tot the handwriting was pretty good especially when its done by a guy... hehe



ya noe, this is my pack of rice provided by prive. look at what cui had done to it!! wow... terrible gal. think she's a true bimbo loh... hu would draw their disposable bento with this design? it's none other tt weird gal hu has the highest rank for being a bimbo. another words, top bimbotic cui!! haha.... nth better to do ah tt gal...



alright, random again... i remembered tt my mom used to wait for me in oder to fetch me home or to sch after my pino lesson. tt was so long ago manz... think i should be around pri 2? i used to take piano lessons from a cc and back then, my household used to own 2 cars... right now, i had gerald to wait for me so tt he may fetch me back on his bike to his house for dinner or movie. hmmm... quite a big change heh? but i tot it's really cute though the transition from cars to bike has a large difference.



ok, i had PC chalet not long ago n this is another highlight for the month!! it was fun... now no fun cuz no more... haha lame. n ya, the guys r trying to start the fire... im somewhere inside the aloha bungalow playing bridge. ya noe, i cant help much in this cuz im not very good with smoke. plus it's quite a no. ppl around the bbq pit. i cant seem to find sth useful to do since every1 has a role to take... sianzed... but oh well, bridge was good. was really exciting! lots of close shaves to win n lose.. but fun!!



this was the moment where we got marcus almost drunk.. wahaha... shan't elaborate more



erm... this is just another random stuff...
got this cookie from my immature band. they bought it from japan... wow... the whole tin cost abt 11 plus singapore dollars and it's got only 30 pieces in it i think. super not worth it but i cant bear to try... hehe



n here's a pic i think it really relates to me pretty much. female bass guitarist with bunny costume and 'dots' facial expression.. haha... wonder how would u interpret it. but it seems signicantly similiar.. thankfully.....
im off with the rabbit nickname!!

short update of my bz schedule

wahuhuh... really working my ass off again
holding 3 jobs currently once again.
- prive
- trueblue (which i guess im gonna stop working there for some time again)
- tuition (she just called to take extra lessons cuz her psle is just next wk)

oh oh.. n i forgot one more new job
modelling for ebusiness... so cool right? cant wait to wear clothes tt i would nv buy n pose in front of the camera for good shots of myself
wahaha... just hope i wont learn to be vain after tt

PRIVE

wow... couldnt believe what prive has taught me
currently, i'm aware tt my human relation skills have improved and i attained more courage in approaching customers, or rather ppl i dunno. the best part is tt i learn quite a bit abt wine these few wks. fun!! i get paid for learning sth new... interesting...


n guess what, i was scheduled for prive from 10 to 5pm n then true blue from 6 to 10pm today
the thing is... i kinda brought wat i learnt in prive along with me to true blue. for this, i managed to get hold of my customers business card n we can keep in contact... he's a wine sommelier with Singapore airlines, another words, he can be my wine tutor... haha whichever it is, i'm so glad i've got this opportunity to meet ppl such as tt.

anyway, gerald cycled to my house alone on monday after i finished work at prive. it was around 2am plus manz.. but because my parents tot tt it is not safe for him to cycle back home at tt hr, he stayed over once again. tt dumb dum still dare to replace some1's shift for the next day... kookoo leh... make himself so tired for wat? sigh.. i guess tt muz be one of his reasons for being so thin

guess what i saw last night

a B-E-A-U-tiful car!!!

so cool right??

current thoughts to myself

once again, i'm grounded to work in this period of my life. u noe... i long to be like cui, nat, carmen... so free... free from the bondage of ur needs to spend on food, things and vacation. i wanna fly away... i really wanna fly away. i have cried so many nights hoping tt i could 1 day catch a short glimpse of what paradise is like. i dun wanna be working my ass off juz to pay for all my basic needs n left nth to enjoy with. i cant even afford an average good meal a day becuz i fear tt my savings r not enough for my uni or piano fees in future. u think 10bucks for a main course is cheap? it's not for me. no t at all.

all tt work in prive

well, after working so many hrs in prive, i think i'm quite familiar with the system and people there. and yes, i have been extending my shifts till late. think i'm home late like 2 am 3am for a couple of times already. guess what, there was this day where no one is accompanying me home from prive 's tranport home. felt really scared in their van.. tt dumb dumb van driver dunno the safety of gals at night n thus , dropped me at the street side near my house. if it's a place where is popular, dun think i will really mind. sengkang is a rural place n yet he can do tt , wahlao really no brain... so gerald was quite concern for my safety n actually cycled from pasir ris to sengkang with waihong just to walk me home from where the van dropped me... he's so kookoo n so cute
i guess tt's y i like to call him kookoo... hee



n there was this day when i decided to extend my shift till closing, hafiz made me this choc to drink. think he saw me pretty tired n made this 1 glass of choc for a break without asking me if i wanted it. so sweet right? hee.. n take a closer look manz...



it''s got my name written on it!! haha.. so sweet!! but some guys said it was cheesy.. wth, i think it's sweet loh.. this needs skill n some guys juz dun have it... really appreciate what he did for me



n wow... dunno y he used a martini glass for a choc drink but im fine with it. hafiz was aware tt i dun drink coffee so he made me choc instead. so kind of him right? n it doesnt taste as bad... think it's juz choc syrup n foam. but i told him next time can include sth else tt prive dun mind losing it to its part timers...



this was the end prpduct after i finished it... sigh..
now i wonder when will he be making me another glass of choc on the days i work..




this pic was taken yesterday when i met gerald's maternal relatives for mid-autumn fest celebration. as u noe, i dread to go. but for his mum's sake, i went. during the whole time over there, gerald wasnt a good host as always n chucked me aside. sigh.. waihong, y didn't u come? so bad... towards the end of the day, we all went for a pasamalan b4 they sent me home. this pic was taken n posted to show 'princess gerald' haha....




azhar made me this choc drink this time round. he's so nice to make me 1 after hearing tt i'm a lil tired n hungry during work. yup, he self-proclaim tt he's my other affair. n for tt, he's been calling me dear dear darling... eeeeeeemy backbone shivers manz... scary



n today, cui had prepare some sauces for her customers. oh shit, as i type this, i juz remembered 1 customer specifically asked for a tomato sauce n i forgot to give... oops. anyway, from tt pic can u see sth extra out of place? look closer if need..

or...

i zoom for u..

saw tt? haha... looks like shit!! hahahaha... dumb dumb cui shitting mustard in a dish

zouk!!

went to zouk on last sat night together with my bro justin and his gal frens
was quite fun but i ended up with a conclusion that it wasnt very meaningful at all
even if it's for the purpose to slack in that kind of area, i guess i still prefer pubbing more than clubbing as it's more meaningful
my bro had this event for students of SIM and it was discounted
the whole place was booked for SIM till 10pm where it'll be open for public
the theme was blink blink very very white
reason being, the SIM students will stand out more under the blacklight they installed
the view was cool but too bad my camera couldn't really catch it



n here it is, a pic of my bro and me at zouk
notice i've alr had a glass of vodka lime... still strong
n i drank the other half of my bro's... still strong manz...
im not pinkish on my cheek and tt's my real hair... not wig ah



see, my hair is real...
haha



oh oh and this gal beside me works in trueblue
her name is pooja and she's really very cute
can u believe it, she's onli 18yrs old..
oh well, it's just sad tt she's working in trueblue...
but i guess the onli reason im really staying to work there is due to carmen and pooja...
think pooja is so sad to work there since there isnt any decent workers there to really tok to
naz is juz some jerk manager while there is prabash there to assist him
naz had gotten pooja into quite a no. of troubles she's innocent in.. sigh, wouldnt like to be bullied by him
n no way m i going to serve him during work manz...








Create your own Friend Test here

i respect my frens, what abt u?

haaaaagh.... RESPECT..

for those who are my frens, i just wanna say that e frenship that we share is not coincidental and i really do treasure every single one of u..
ur every opinion or advice will not be taken lightly because i know you all cared for me in one way or another
but wat i'm trying to say here isn't about frenship but more on the respect in the frenship
i understand that all of us have become really bz with the workload we each carry. meeting up for some catch up session is pretty essential.
well... the prob is how r u going to do tt...
i hav often been neglected by my 2 good frens in church whenever they have decided to meet up on any other days
well, they often say we didn't have time to bond as much n are eager for updates...
funny how it feels so cold between us with words n yet warm when we see each other at work or in church
is it all an act of socialising?
one such incident would be today where they met up somewhere...
i would take it as... they wanna have a private time together so they didn't ask me along. which is fine by me actually cuz i respect tt every individual shud have their own personal space
but if u asked me along to meet up on a last min basis cuz i only come to know tt at tt moment, pls... dun.. dun ever tell other ppl tt u tried so hard to bond with me n blah...
really, if u really treasure some1, u will set a time a suitable location to meet up.
once again, i'm telling u this cui n nat... im not a rag or tissue paper tt you can throw around after use. nor m i always available to ur service.
honestly speaking, i really dislike the way u guys 'respects' me..
put urself in my shoes...
i'm tied down to work n bloody hell cui asked me to replace her today for work
apparently i wasnt needed due to the overstaff in prive
it's ok... we knew tt on mon, but the fact tt u nv include me in the meeting gave me an impression tt u guys have some important stuff to tok abt, which i do not wish to interfere...
u told me like today n expects me to come meet u guys up on a last min basis?
wat m i? wat m i man? u shouldn't even ask me along because, in the 1st place, it wasn't even in ur intention to include me


y m i always being treated like tt by the 2 of u? i some time ask myself, y m i so foolish?
foolish enough to actually tot highly of u guys...
i'm just a withered flower under the care of u 2
e reason im holding on is because of our long yrs frenship... how pathetic isnt it?

calculating my finance

(liabilities) things needed to pay:
- piano lesson $180
- phone bills $50
- bus/train concession $52/45
- braces $360
- monthly allowance $100 = need good food mah... 100 is quite a lot already
total: $742



(income per month) work pay:
- prive 3days a week 8hrs each shift $192 x 4 = $768
- aranda 2days a week 4hrs each shift $48 x 4 = $192
- trueblue 1day a week 4hrs each shift $22 x 4 = $88
total: $1048


savings = $1048 - $742
= $306 (have to work 4 mths to get a laptop) wahuhuhuh...


is there an easier way out to get cash? sigh...

justin gor's graduation day

this is taken during the preparation of attending gor's graduation day...
wahaha... was in the rented car, on our way to fetch gor from his interview tt morning b4 his grad ceremony. yup... was really funny tt day. finally see the feminine side of my mum.. =p



yay!! he got his stuffs on stage...



sweet isn't it? cant wait to take a family pic of tt day



paparazzi!!!


ya.. i was angry then...


now we see the sadistic side of wai



these are some pictures i vandalized while i was bored.. wahaha... i have a useful tool called 'hp' to play with once i'm left alone from doing anything productive. too bad they didn't have horns lah... could have paste it behind wai's head....
carmen n cui, be thankfully i didn't play with ur faces k?
actually.. no lah... more like scared u will kill me... hahahahha
u see.. i vandalized wai's cuz i know gerald won't let wai bully me mah. n i vandalized gerald's cuz he dun dare to bully me or i'll kill him!! wahahhahahah