what a terrific week!

tonight, i'll be facing CCA Awards Night and i truly hope that FPA would win something. i don't know if i'll win anything as an individual and i think i didn't do enough to win a title. either way, i'm already happy that if FPA could be recognized for their profession.

last 2 days ago was our 4th Anniversary. wow... it's awesome!! i had a great time and i think perhaps our anniversary will get better over the years. hahaha

and post anniversary celebration the next day was at USS!!! with his relatives!!! how cool right??? for the first time, i went to USS!! oh my gosh.. it was like vacation to me!!

1 down and 3 to go..

oh yes... one down to freedom... i just can't wait to be free from this invisible bondage that deprives me from friends and fun. argh.. oh well... i should really invest some time for myself to catch up with the things i like since i've given more space from responsibilities. alright, shall do that after exams... i wanna stayover carmen's place!!!! i wanna go shopping spree!!! i wanna achieve grade 5 violin! i wanna compose a lot of songs! i wanna jam!

by the way, i really do wish i could treat church like how i would treat FPA. you may ask why can't i do it all the same? well, there is this thing called overwriting authority that i do not wish to end up doing and knowing that by doing so will not reap pleasant return so why bother? a lot of times, i thought there is a lot to be done to work on the youths interest and getting them to know God in the things they meet everyday but somehow i just don't know if the things we are doing actually help the youths. i really wonder... are we doing our job properly? something i realized about people is that when a small group gather to work on something with joy, more would like to join in. i tried sharing with the committee back then but they chuck this idea aside. so.. i suppose i've got nothing else to say other than voicing out problems i see.. recently they went to USS due to some sudden change. the funny thing is, why don't all the youths get excited for it even though they've been there before? another problem, the sudden change of the USS outing may be inevitable but i wonder aren't all outings focused on developing youths? so what happened to the attendance? what exactly is the core problem? i really wonder if they actually saw the core problem.. i saw it and knew what has to be done but i'm definitely not in any place to say anything even though i'm suppose to have. i didn't wanna take up the responsibility to lead the solution because it'll take a while for it to progress and i'm not staying in this church long enough for a reason. so it's not wise to start leading or suggesting the committee towards a different direction. haiya... if only... seriously... if only i knew the Big plan. i wouldn't feel so impatient and irritated with all that has happened, for sure...

studying bullshit

oh yay!! i finally changed blogskin and everything else. oh well.. this post is just to test out how it really looks and all..

anyway, i've got 2 major projects on hand in which this projects requires me to fly all around in gathering the right people to make it work. i don't think i'll be able to do it myself and i know FPA will help me with it. in any case, i'm entering my exams next monday and i really hope it will all work out fine given the amount of time spent on FPA and studies. not sure by going to lectures will help me secure a pass for this semester but i really hope for the best. some of the subjects were clearly off my mind because i find it a bullshit and most people agrees with me. still, no choice, need to pass, i'm gonna be studying BULLSHIT for another 3 wks! argh... will pretty stink after that...

almost the last lap in FPA

On this faithful day, I realized how much FPA had grown to become. It has gained back it's popularity, proven its ability, given opportunity and had learned to nurture other clubs which I was too ignorant to have noticed. Indeed, I have pushed FPA to this height and now it is finally enjoying its glory. All within just one year, so much has changed. I’m proud of my members who’ve worked so hard with me and will always treasure that bond we shared throughout this journey. It’s too bad I’m a person who doesn’t remember what I’ve done during the process of building but a person who only knew what is to be done based on situations. Always looking ahead for FPA but was never able to keep explicit knowledge in order to leave a trail for the others in line. Seeing FPA soaring up above the other clubs just made me dread to end my appointment but knowing that my work here is done and completed, there is no other purpose for me to stay in where I am. Watching FPA reap its harvest was the greatest joy I have for this club. Its recognitions from clubs as well as school had brought me great satisfaction and I’m truly grateful for FPA in giving me this opportunity to lead and also to know myself better.

on a side not:

the school hopes to get a montage from us on student week and open house. if it is done well, they would like to PURCHASE it from us. how cool is that right? FPA is awesome!

It is done.

Ya know, I thought the club still needs a lot of time to stabilize, given the no. Of truly involved people. But this few days blew me away and also caused my understanding of FPA to change. I suppose FPA has grown quite a bit and I was lagging behind in realizing it's growth.

I have stepped down from presidency. Hurray!! I don't know why but I feel glad for FPA to once again be on track with other clubs. Format, structure, bonds have been set so now it's up to the next president to maintain or improve on it. Although I'm still considered an exco despite stepping down, I'm gonna be a shadow there as negotiated with my successor. Hee

what should i do?

i'm once again placed in two diverse route in which both are good in their own ways. the only thing for me to do is just to simply choose which route to take. what should i do? which path should i take? and if i do take this path, will everyone be understanding enough to give leeway? why is everyone telling me to keep to one particular path despite knowing that that path will require a lot more from me?

for the benefit of the reader, i'm in dilemma to stay as president in FPA or step down for the next yr. i want to step down because president here in uni is so different from one in poly and i'd like to keep life peaceful next yr so that smooth transition to Gerald's church may be commenced. that would also mean for me to prepare myself for the next phase of life that's coming my way in a few years time. in any case, stepping down allows other excos to step up and take the opportunity to experience leadership. after all, its student development we are talking about so therefore, it makes perfect sense for a movement of positions. in addition, i'll be entering my last semester next year where i'll be managing 5 modules instead of the normal 4. all 5 modules are project base and that requires a lot more time from me to focus on academics. therefore, the more i should let go of the president role so that i may focus on the last lap of school. however, my excos that i had encouraged to replace me somehow refused to step up and they would, at the most, take up VP. in fact, they wanted me to stay on another year to lead. likewise from the clubs i've once worked with, they would hope that i could stay on so that the clubs may continue to work together towards something huge. because of all this conflicting viewpoints, i consulted my parents and again, one would want me to stay on while the other suggest i step down due to the pile of work i have next yr. what should i do? what does God want me to do? this is indeed frustrating...

some updates

i know i'm a little late in posting this but i know i have to because its something worth remember yet with my terrible memory, i guess i have to depend on this blogger for assistance.

anyway, FPA set up a recruit booth not long ago and thanks to the terrible design of the school we don't exactly get a crowd. partly also because of the estates ppl and the schedules of students... oh well... shall try other strategic location next time..

SHOWBUSK is an event that was started by me in SIM. this event has been known pretty widely to all the arts club. quite cool eh? i think this coming showbusk will be even better than the previous one. yes ah!!!

and well, SIM wanna thank students for our commitments and effort in making it vibrant, they invited us to SIM Annual Management Seminar on 26th august. soo coooooool!!! i get to meet the author of Tipping Point, Blink, Outlier & What the Dog Saw, Malcolm Gladwell!!! hahaha....

but i guess i wasn't very kind to him after all... kinda made him sign all my books + friend's books. it's once in a life time right? i hope its not too much to ask...

growing in power

mediacorp reporters came down to SIM to give a workshop on the crisis and risk media management last night. although it's a long workshop, i totally find it fruitful. initially it focuses more on the sports and all but i kinda like look at what they are trying to say in a different angle. since they are reporters and have lots of experience in front of the camera, i thought it'll be beneficial if i could get down to the filming side so that my club can have another angle to branch out to. therefore, i approached our higher up, student development manager on his thoughts about investing some money on a handycam. he was positive about the idea and yes, my club is gonna purchase a camera! but that also means more proposals to do and submit to school. haiya... after which, i approached those mediacorp speakers for guidance to this filming route. and i must say, talking to them really inspire one to think further for the club. however, he was telling me that this new filming media that i will be working on will make me more powerful that the others. that also means FPA will be at the top above all other arts cca. huh..... but it's already at the top currently. with the additional "power" FPA will become invincible.... not a very good thing... at least to me, cuz then i have a problem stepping down. right now, i'm so confused.... what good is it to get so much power? i dont see the good side about it.

a rare opportunity

i got approached by the SIM to act in a malaysian production where i'll be given the opportunity to act as a lead actress together with their malaysian idol 1st runner up as the lead actor. i really wonder is it a good idea to take it up.... at the same time i'm suppose to find another actor and actress to be the other sub characters.

the school staff really wants me to take it up as it is a rare opportunity and apparently i fit the description very well. sigh... the only problem is that it's a chinese script. i'm suppose to consider this offer thoroughly... so scary...

lesson learnt

yesterday, i learned that as a President or in any leadership role, it's important to cease whining as the effects and impacts of it can be pretty overwhelming or, perhaps, unexpected and unwanted. afterall, there's nothing good that can really come out from whining so why bother wasting time doing that right? oh well... lesson learnt!

SSO Concert

1st of all, i got a complimentary ticket from school to attend SSO concert where it's labelled as the President's Young Performers. surprisingly, my LEAD camp friends and i were seated 4 rows behind our President S R Nathan without advance notice. in any case, he was the attraction apparently. what was more surprising was when my camp friends weren't sure of requesting a picture taken with the conductor of SSO since he was walking towards our direction. they kinda pushed me to speak up for them and i did. guess what? we really took a few photos with the conductor and he is seriously tall man. he looked so young and pretty good in his suit. it'll be great if my bf could master an instrument. he already melt my heart in his own ways but if he actually mastered an instrument, i think my heart not only melt ah... might even evaporate! hahahaha okok lame lame... it's late at night and im talking nonsense already. oh well... time to go bed

i realized ppl do read my blog! im sorry to have kept you guys waiting for more updates!! i thought no one wanna read already and all the updates could have and would have bore you guys since it's just updates. so sorry...

exciting!

i had an exciting wk once again. was due for LEAD Camp 2011 for all excos of different clubs to attend and get to know each other. tonight, i just performed for the RMIT Grad Show 2011 with a dance item coordinated by DanceArt and assisted by FPA. how cool! i'm definitely meeting a lot more people now and it's people of higher grounds (kinda scary but oh well) and i heard news that they wanna hire us to perform for school. how interesting isn't it?

another thing is that some of the club presidents wanna join forces in working on a production together. i was wondering if i should do this for the CCA. it definitely has more benefit to FPA as it is to me especially when i wanna step down from this post. by tapping on this production would mean i have another year to serve for this club, i'm not very sure if this is healthy for the club. haiya....

while having insomnia, i decided to blog yet have no clue what should i blog about.

ok. i've been invigilating degree level examination for UOL and ACCA and it turn out to be quite fun. then again, it also depends on the partner they assigned to you to work with as you know, just working on the job scope makes work boring and mundane, so i socialized.

i've made many many friends even with those that didn't really wanna open up for some reason and i got a pretty good partner! he's really nice and hardworking (thus i slacked a bit) i also made many many friends during ShowBUSK (busking festival in SIM) in the month of February and Open House in the month of March. gosh.... i think i'm meeting too many people this yr.

can i stop socializing? i would love to do that once in a while but not permanently so that the need to rest after a tiring event is fulfilled.

ok i'm bored...

Valentines' Day is coming...

to celebrate or not to celebrate? hmmmm...

let's just take a look at my commitment this yr:

gerald said i got 7 but i don't really know until i list them down

1]God

2]family

3]church

4]friends/bf

5]school

6]fpa

7]?

hmmm... is it heavy? i even thought of picking up violin and teaching piano. wow.. looks like i need more than 24hrs for a day

Birthday!

it was a fun day and i really appreciate all those people that made time to surprise me on this day when i once thought it's just another normal day. so the celebration started on sunday with the opening of beef steamboat specially prepared by my dad. he knows i like beef pretty much!

after w while of monopoly deal, my castle cake was presented! wahaha.. and then picture taking.

and that was sunday celebration. now for the actual day it was amazing. i wanted to report sick the night before because i wasn't feeling well and was reluctant to go for the interview role playing. surprisingly, i did well for the interview even without any preparations. the lecturer said he would hire me, of course that's if its real interview. one more thing to note. during the interview, while i was in the role of an interviewee, one guys decided to upright flirt with me ! goodness! but i take it as a compliment lah... so after school, i wanted to leave for my appointment with carmen but i was hogged back by my fpa excos. there they surprised me with a cake!

oh gosh.. im so touched by them. i really didn't expect a cake and its my favorite cake too!! i'm beginning to see fpa more than a commitment and believe that's where all dreams come true. i'm loving my FPA now. and then i went to meet carmen!!!!

guess who i saw there too! alexandra! the TP cosplay guy. oh man.. he was with another girl though. heck it. Carmen and me shopped and ate. it was fun! its like the old times just that we dress differently and there were lesser constructions in progress now.

so the day ended with me going for flash mob practice where i got tossed and spin around by strong guys. felt kinda... weird though... haha

My first post of the yr with my beautiful phone!

It's a new year!
Lots of worries lots of responsibilities...
I wonder if my body allows me to handle them all. Oh man... I think I haven't posted on my blog for a long time. I don't know what to write about. Oh man... Oh I know... New yr resolution.

Yr 2011 RESOLUTION
1. Time management
2. Eat when it's meals time
3. When happy, go kite-flying with bros. Otherwise, our usual hideout
4. Go shopping, movies, kinect exercise and marinating with Carmen
5. Make sure all activities are carried out smoothly for FPA
6. Maintain the level of commitment for church
7. Treat Gerald as family
8. Work on projects asap. No more slacking...

I think that's about it. I know it's a shitty resolution but that's all I could think of for now.