Film competition 2010 + my new baby love

this video was done by FPA in participation to the e-Global Challenge 2010 Film Competition organized by kesuma and Muslim Culture and Malay Society of SIM.

it won us 4 awards:

- best actor

- best actress

- best director

- best storyline

sorry for the delay as i just wasn't motivated to upload it. haha

honestly speaking, it's not fantastic to me but i tried my best to edit here and there for the effect. however, i must agree i could used some other effects to make this video much more appealing. whichever it is, it's over and we won! haha... made FPA proud and i'm super proud of it although it's not very fantastic. FPA rox!

believe or not, i got trophy and certificate for best director! cool right?

anyways, after completing grade 8 for piano, i'm moving on to expand my knowledge of music. therefore, a new love is born...

what a beauty isn't she? i wanna name her like my own! ok, she's called "gift"

think cello and violin can complement each other pretty well together with the accompaniment of the piano. it's perfect.

this is like a dream come true. after mastering this instrument, i wanna master harp too. sigh... too ambitious? i think it's ok to dream big. i will not let all this knowledge go a waste. will share them only when i'm prepared to settle down. oooooohhh. it's so pretty...

it has begun!

the good & the bad

here comes my worry

as i said i either be over-committed to something or not at all and that's how i'm structured to be so extreme in my commitments.

in this FPA, i was told that production director was easy and i got the post. after president left for his education abroad, my post was in consideration to be promoted to vice-president. and now... the vice-president that got promoted to be president wants me to be president instead. i feel so scared to make decisions right now. i don't know what will i be handling this time if i were to listen and take up the post. i don't know what to expect. and i have to give my response this thursday morning.

so much to think about before my last exams.. how cruel...

stuck at home

this is just one of the days that everyone else has plans but me. stuck at home not knowing what things to do other than studying for the next paper this monday which i haven't even read a single thing about it. i guess i might just take a nap now to burn midnight oil later. who knows? oh well, kinda feel alright being home alone.. perhaps i'm trying to console myself but nevertheless, it's somewhat a good way to spend time with just myself. feels weird but ok, i can learn.

so what should i do?

should i try to be a little more feminine by posing in front of the mirror and say hi to myself?

or perhaps experiment the make-up set i have?

record music?

currently i'm just playing backyard monster on facebook in order to avoid studying and enjoy the moment of relief after a paper has expired today.

i could have joined my bro to club and help share the load of drinking as his colleagues are eager to see him drunk. i bet i could be there as his tower defense man. (oops.. too much games =p)

or perhaps join my other bro for halloween party somewhere in town and get shocked by all those "stuffs" appearing around.

there's also another choice of joining gerald for church training which is similar to a lecture. the only difference is that you can't eat during the training session and you aren't allowed to slp. ehehe

well, i could also have joined carmen with her lesson since she's got class tonight. the thought of traveling back to school just scares me away when i was so glad that i reached home at 4pm.

as you can tell from the title, i'm home. the decision is simple. i'm tired and mentally exhausted. socializing takes a lot of my energy away and i don't think i can take it. initially i wanted to just go out with a group of frens or even just someone to chit chat and chill. i guess it's not happening tonight. the night is young but i'm turning in now. haha...

fears back

once again, my fear is back.

after acknowledging the fact that i failed my accounting module last semester, i have no courage to face it again this semester. moreover, the rest of the modules i took this semester doesn't seem assuring for me to even make it for the next semester. so what have i been doing?

honestly speaking, if i look back at the days i spent this semester, i really don't know what was i doing for school. CCA? Projects? indeed, all i could remember was rushing to print my notes, group projects and individual projects and not so much of focusing in class. i wonder if i'm the only person experiencing this and i hope not. i must say this semester passed too quickly for me to even remember the much about it.

and back to studies now for there is no time to waste...

after wedding syndrome

here's the picture of pretty girls sitting around the table on Malvin & Jan's wedding night. i'm not suppose to be there because i'm suppose to be at the relatives seat. aiya.. even Malvin was wondering where would i be sitting... haha. oh well, managed to take that picture with them when i took my chances to do some table visitations.

well, i've always disliked dressing up so... it's really hard for me to make myself do it. before all that jazz in the wedding dinner, i was complaining half the time about doing make-ups and wearing dresses for weddings. i know all brides wanna be pretty on their wedding day but i just thought it's not the appearance the groom is marrying but the person itself. what i'm wondering is is it necessary for brides to dress-up on their wedding day?

i thought to myself about how i shall have my wedding planned as of 21yrs old mind:

1. montage shall be done by me!

2. bf shall pick selective songs to be played for wedding dinner (cuz i noticed their wedding restaurant played "you had a bad day")

3. dresses? hmm.. i wan short skirts for wedding album because i simply find the gown too long and uncomfortable. on the wedding night, i don't want make-up! light make-up is fine. hehe and i think i wanna wear shoes.. no wait. boots more like it. cool right? actually to be honest, i though of wearing pants as my option but my gor said he would kill me if i do that. haha

4. must choose humorous mc for the day

5. shall come out with the program flow for dinner cuz quite boring to just eat

6. must get 'on'/ enthu people to shout "yam seng" and conduct them like orchestra!

7. oh oh i want string quartet also!! piano also can lah but i find it boring

ok i can't think of any things else already. so i shall just stop here =p

life is just too short...

some times, i gaze into the sky wondering what am i doing in this world and left that thought hanging. and then there are times where i wonder what if i were to die today, what would happen to everybody? and if i were to write my last words on a paper, telling everyone to have a party for my funeral, what would their expressions be? haha... think it'll be quite a memorable reaction in return.

so what if that really happens? what if you are about to die, what is certificates to you? what is money to you? what is achievements to you? aren't those suppose to add-value to your life?

majority spend their first quarter of life studying and achieving grades that would help boost their pride and fulfill their parent's wishes yet living a life not knowing where they are heading to. but is this what they want in life? is this what i want for life? and if your D-day comes would you find your life meaningful?

i know if i die now, i won't be satisfied with it. there's just so many things to do and so little time. and people would say "it's all about time management" which i don't deny. but i would wanna spend all my time knowing everything and acing nothing at all, the benefit is to meet people and search for that one i've been searching for the longest time. where are you? where could you be? i'm growing tired of waiting but it's this hope i'm holding on that kept me going...

so what is studies? now it has dawn to me that it's just an activity to know more people. in fact, to put it crudely, education is a waste of time for someone who wants to master something else than gaining academic intelligence. that's because i'm not clever nor am i smart and i'm no where near them. i like beautiful things and i like to create them from limited resources. i like to listen and i like to match music with sounds. most challenging is to match the pitch each environmental sound is produced. i like to dream in my sleep because they always amaze me. i like to look at the wonders of nature, the miracle of each living beings are form or each elements could create. i'm that sort that enjoys adventure and i would seek it before it seeks me. however, these adventures i'm referring to don't mean challenging the dangers of our human body, it's more like experiencing lives in a different way.

i don't wanna get stuck with work when i grow up. perhaps i shall work as a project servant and appreciate life to its potential instead of facing 4 walls and few windows in a not very conducive office. we shouldn't be captivated with workloads in a container rather to venture the world out there. and to know the beauty of this massive creation that lived way before human's record of history, i think our lives are just too short to see all that wonders

whoooopps... my shoe...

seeking other solutions

i must admit that i haven't been putting much thought and time to post updates on my blog. it makes me feel jealous to read other's blog because i know that i don't exactly have that much luxury to write what i feel anymore. perhaps i should try to commit a post per week? could be a good start?

do you know that i'm currently taking the role of PRODUCTION DIRECTOR? it's now imprinted into my CCA transcript and when i saw it, i almost got a heart-attack. why? that's because it's a big word and it weighs too much responsibilities that i doubt i am fit to be in that position. i feel like killing myself due to all those responsibilities that i'm carrying. in fact, i think i killed myself many times already, it's a wonder why i'm still alive. whichever it is, my academics and CCA is making me stressed so much that i wanna run away from everything that i am right now. despite all that feeling, i ironically feels glad to take up this post as it is somewhat a chance for me to know myself, my leadership skills, first hand. that's also because of the kind of leadership history i had in the past that i kinda quit halfway through, it's not a very proud thing to do but i admit i lacked that confidence to pull through it.

this brings me to say... i need a break from this world. again. i need to refresh myself before i get burnt out. sadly, my dad is still against the idea for me to go overseas even though i'm an adult already. i don't want to upset my dad, so i won't push it. what's worse is that i realized the kind of person i am since the past and it never really change much even now. my brothers and i had a chat last night about the freedom we have to make decisions. i then come to realise that i'm that sort who have the "imaginary" boundary i would never cross. and since i knew i would never cross, i don't even put much effort into devising a plan to break it. it has been seen since young... gosh... now i understand why i would refrain myself from upsetting my dad because there is this boundary of "once you cross there's no way of gaining back the trust from your parents" constantly but unconsciously prompting me.

i guess i just have to look for some other solutions then.

sianz..

happy and sad..

happy for the violin students getting distinction for grade 3, distinction for grade 2, merit and pass for grade 1. i guess they really did a good job when i was in the exam room with them.

sad for having myself labelled in their exam script. it's never a good comment or impression when the examiner decides to write something that relates to the pianist. the examiner wrote something like "the ensemble had difficulty in arising" which meant the pianist had difficulty accompanying the violinist as commented by their violin teacher. damn sad...

current committments

it used to be this amount of workload i was holding onto the past month, i suppose.

1. school work

3 individual assessments (all due in a month's time or less)

2 group assessments

2. production manager role

= 2yrs plan

= script training

film training

production

editing training

finally screening

+ FPA finance matters

+ sourcing out trainers for FPA workshops

3. committee member for church gospel camp in dec

4. church youth room decor i/c

5. currently enrolled in First Aid Course and there's exam next sunday!!!

6. will be involved in Chingay for SIM

7. Ambassador for FPA

= need to source out make-up artist

look for dress

have to maintain GPA!!! (i wanna cry already)

Now...

it's gonna be:

1. church committee gospel camp

2. church room i/c

3. accompanist for 4 violinists taking their grade 1, 2, 3 exam this week

4. piano teacher for 2 students (not confirmed yet)

5. monitoring the progress of scripwriting course

6. HMT & ER projects due soon, HRM due the week after.

i like this picture...

and this picture the most!

kinda like the effect that the mask gives though.. well, like what the photographer said, mysterious.... too bad i don't know how to smirk properly if not the photoshoot would have been much at ease..

photo Shoot!

today's the first item of my stress list to be off the chart. awesome! just that i dislike putting on make-up because i have trouble taking them off and dislike dresses because they limit my movement. oh! don't forget the heels, they kill my feet and i'll never forget that.

anyways, if i ever get a hold of my photos from the photo shoot, will try and make the effort to post it here. if it's nice i'll post it on facebook loh.. and i don't think i'll be proud of it as my face will be covered with a layer of powder which doesn't really show myself as myself. ya... eeeeeee and the dress!! aiya.. it's lacy.. why would i be happy wearing it? it's so... girl... eeee

commitments!! ahhhhhhh

tell me why shouldn't i be stressed when i have the following commitments entrusted to me:

1. school work

3 individual assessments (all due in a month's time or less)

2 group assessments

2. production manager role

= 2yrs plan

= script training

film training

production

editing training

finally screening

+ FPA finance matters

+ sourcing out trainers for FPA workshops

3. committee member for church gospel camp in dec

4. church youth room decor i/c

5. currently enrolled in First Aid Course and there's exam next sunday!!!

6. will be involved in Chingay for SIM

7. Ambassador for FPA

= need to source out make-up artist

look for dress

have to maintain GPA!!! (i wanna cry already)

saying a little prayer

oh Lord,

teach me to accept people with differences

teach me to accept their weaknesses and strengths

teach me to accept who they are and what they have become

teach me to accept that very part of them which seems unbearable

teach me to accept them with love

teach me to accept them like how you accept us in thy Kingdom

teach me your ways so that i may learn and follow

for Your ways shall be my ways

Your words be my words

and as the Heavens are higher than the earth

so are Your ways higher than my ways

and Your thoughts than my thoughts

school is starting soon.. again..

i dread school.

i dread it so much that i wished i never lived this moment.

never had to meet new faces in a blast

never had to face this fear of failure

never had to waste this time on something redundant

really hope someone could help me through this stage.

i just wanna run away...

i had a happening week

just a brief updates of the events that happened but wasn't mentioned until now. oops

back when i was in the midst of preparing for my exams in uni, i had this guys to chill with at ikea. it was one of those random days where there was this sudden urge to go ikea and we just headed there unplanned. didn't went for the furnitures but the food. haha... i think ikea might get disappointed with their furniture losing out to the food they offered in terms of attraction.

and there, there...i dyed my hair copper. too bad it's not that reflective under fluorescent lights but oh well, i like that color!! i like straight hair too!! i wan short hair! but i got curly and almost long hair now... how sad that i can't get it cut since people are so against the idea.

after some time, there came graduation day for gerald. family photo!

and then on 26th may 2010, wednesday, i had some time with Carmen at iluma for... i don't know... shopping? she wanna go out for a walk, i wanna stay home while gerald needs to lavender for his passport. i thought it'll be great for both carmen and gerald to go lavender so gerald gets his things done and carmen get to do some walk walk and i get to stay home!! haha... it didn't happen. all 3 of us went out for walk walk. and after a short notice of wai and gabriel going sengkang swimming complex for a swim, we all head there to join them. how cool right? just heading out without and plans... kinda like to do all that on the spot things. kinda fun

27th may 2010

i went church for some logistics help out and then to teo heng for karaoke with carmen, gabriel, waihong, gerald and carolyn! after that, gerald, germaine and me went to east coast to celebrate their grandma's birthday till late man.. as in late late. only got home about 4am and then had to wake up early for kite-flying tmr

kite-flying was kinda tough when you have 2 strings to handle and manage. my kite was given by my brothers as birthday present last year. i didn't really had a successful flight last year... at least there was some improvement this time. haha

old flame for PC

just when i thought there's nothing much that i could contribute to Production Crew in order to benefit them in any ways possible, i found myself a new task to help bond the freshies more in their assigned groups. once again, i felt my time spent in PC workshop meaningful because everyone get to know each other better throughout the workshop and retarded games we play. haha...

last week, i helped leo's group with bonding and that was unplanned for. initially, i was planning to just look-see the different workshops and perhaps wander about the different stations. little did i expect myself to be drawn by Daven into ice-breaking with Leo's group. how interesting isn't it? it turned out that, most of them, by the end of the whole session, managed to remember each others names and even exchanged numbers which i thought it's super duper important!

today, i helped out with Liwei's group in XiuXian's station because XiuXian said he has problems playing ice-breaker games with them. i tried but they aren't as active as what i expected of them, worst, the activity's wire was too long for them to coil, so it turned out to be a long game. thankfully, with XiuXian's bright idea to play 2 games con-currently, the flow was faster. glad to hear, XiuXian was really satisfied with today's workshop because of their positive attitude and their hunger to learn, it all made it worthwhile coming down to help.

next week, i will be visiting alex's station teaching SinYing's group for some ice breaking session. heard from Leo that they didn't wanna play ice breaker games because they had too much already. this got me thinking what else can i do with them if that's the case... they aren't that bonded from what i hear. odd... oh well, shall settle it next week then

The people of the world will never thank God. When something good happens to them they will say they are lucky. The expression “Lucky” has in its etymology “Lucifier” !

When something bad happens to the people of the world, they say “My God!” or attribute the natural disaster to “An Act Of God”

So where does God get His praise and thanks? His People

Be different from the world. Thank God for what you go through. Out of your mess will come a message to bless others.

this post is dedicated to Carmen

i must say, throughout all this while when i face the tough times and the best times of my life, as to date, i really appreciate how my beloved girl friend had made her footprints visible and distinct in all this episodes of my life story. i think about it, i see that i'm really fortunate to have such a friend to back me up when i'm totally pathetic, to see the positive out of the negative point of view, to teach me to relax and enjoy life as troubles and worries pace up at my doorsteps and to give me some of her warm advice.

i really want to make this known because i'm simply proud of the friendship we shared, your footprints in my life had made a great contribution to where i am now. indeed, when i'm stressed up, i do unusual stuffs and you were there to try calm me down and make things work out in a positive manner. i guess this is the toughest job ever because not even gerald can do that. he simply just go with the flow instead of solving the problem itself.

what's more? you let me know that i am also important in your life, in a subtle way, be it the different lifestyle that we are living in now, you still care for me. also, you would always want to meet me up despite the fact that i'm boring and always busy. when you have problems, you gave me a space to voice my opinions and you take them into your own considerations, allowing me to fulfill 1 simple basic objective of friendship from a common phrase "what're friends for?"

it's just irritating that those letters i wrote you are stuck in a bottle. i guess i gotta wait for you to return before i could pass them to you. sad...

jusy wanna say a big Thank You! you really are a great friend

oh no!!! hermits facing death!

gerald's hermit crab passed away last night! can you believe? now i really wonder if i have the skill or the required basic cabitat for my 3 little buddies to stay alive and wander around. indeed, marine animals are hard to please. but one thing remains a mystery, why did gerald's hermit crab died given the cabitat? is it the lack of sun since the shore is always facing the sun's glare? or food? or temperature?

gotta stay strong constance!!!

'Let others lead small lives, argue over small things, cry over small hurts, but not you. Let others leave their future in someone else's hands, but not you'

- Jim Rohn

i have always believed that you, as a host of your life, should be responsible of all the things you do and be courageous to face the consequences that will subsequently follow with all the decisions made. the words that you say, the things and actions you do, the lapse of time when things are suppose to happen, it's all connected and contributed to how people gather their impression of you. so be sure of who you are, what you can do and not do, how you want others to know you and what they should gather impressions of you because every little step has a slack risk of making misinterpretations.

this is just who you are, the more you push your limit, the more it'll hurt. but just bear with it for the sake of everyone, it'll be over before you knew it. there is a greater purpose in where you are although it may look as if it's not where you belong.

ps. not directing to anyone in case you don't realize. it's just how constance would face the problem with a clear mind and she needs reminders when she's not composed.

3 hermit crab from gerald

when i thought my hermit crab lives like how Nat's hermit crab lived, i was wrong. i checked out the internet and they stated that land hermit crabs do eat egg shells for meals, it didn't work on mine. so what are they?? one thing i observed is that they like submerging themselves in water, so i check the internet out for more information on tidal or marine hermit crabs. more confusion arise as there isn't much information about it, so based on pictures, i assumed my hermit crab is part of the species in marine areas and of course, gave them water to submerge themselves. yup, they are happy now. i think they got too comfortable with the area in fact.

i have officially name this fellow 'Greedie' because he's been stealing food from all the other hermit crabs. how do i tame this fellow? in fact, he's also always bully the other fellows that were bunking with him in the same tank. gosh... i'm really worried that it'll pinch one of their limbs off during a fight man.

this is "chirpy". kinda named him that because he's the first to chirp among the 3 musketeers. well, he's always bullied by greedie since he's smaller in size compared to greedie. nothing much about him so far other than the fact that he likes to pester greedie for no reason. perhaps he's just being territorial?

finally, "scaredee" is the only girl i have discovered so far who was pregnant for the past week until yesterday, she gave birth to lots of larvae babies. so what's with the name? as you can see the picture above, she's always hiding her head in her shell with a pair of eyes sticking out. don't really know why she's so timid though. few days ago, she was bubbling. i was so worried that she would die since it's the sign of all dead crabs before their death. i checked out the internet and got to know that these crabs bubble mainly because they needed more moisture on their body under the wrong humidity and temperature. to get that, they bubble. otherwise, it's just stress. cool fact heh?

here's the larvae that scaredee gave birth to. initially i thought it looked like mosquito larvae trying to survive in her cabitat but i just psycho-ed myself that it's not. until now, i'm still quite uncertain if it's mosquito larvae or hermit crab larvae. oh well, gotta wait till it grows to a pupa. take a closer look with my small magnifying glass down below.

feeling lousy: i don't wanna grow up

was feeling rather upset today despite the fact that my group had finally finished the marketing project that lasted for a substantial torturous number of months. was once again feeling the loneliness when the group starts chattering, i realized i have nothing much to chat with them. part of the main reason is that they speak chinese and use a different wavelength as me. or perhaps their interests doesn't interest me at all that causes the barrier to speak a word during their social conversation. i tried and i tried real hard but i guess they don't see it. i always felt that barrier when i'm with them but not so much in fpa. why is that so?? i really feel lousy to have no real friends that i can call 'friends' in school. all of them are just acquaintances who are constantly trying HDs by all means. i wanted to hate my life but i know that won't do me good, in the first place, i'm the one that makes decisions in my life and by hating my life makes life seems meaningless.

i also figure out that i like being childish because i wanna capture what have been lost in my youthful days even though i'm aging day by day. however, this characteristic puts me in a disposition among my peers as they would not enjoy doing what i like best. see what i mean? how can i find friends that i would enjoy their company with and with the same frequency? and the closest to that would be gerald's group of friends without a doubt. but everytime i join his gang, i'll feel some sort of difference that took me a while to realize it. his gang share times together in camps, courses and workshops as well as planning and commitments that i cannot participate. you know how sucky that feels? it's the same as your group of friends having fun out there without you just because you are not allowed to come along. you know what? i rather not know the fun they will be experiencing cause it hurts. it will hurt badly...

what's more, my girlfriend had been going overseas for all the fun and sight seeing while im here in singapore facing all the odds myself. i really hate it..

what i'm left to do now is to bond with my new post in fpa and church camp commitment, and of cause this dreadful studies of mine.

how to study???

just thought this pictures is funny and creepy. oh well, trying to get myself to study but dun think the time i spent was productive today. gosh... i wanna do well for exams but how to do that at this rate???

i.. M... IN!!!!! WoooHoooo~

you must be wondering what other time-consuming commitment have i got myself into right?

about a month ago, i had this interview for an executive committee post in Film & Performing Arts and was hoping to be the president of that cca but because my producer scared us with all the responsibilities a president hold in SIM, i kinda changed my decision and went for the producer post as my first and president the second choice.

and the results!!! it is finally out... haha

just had a meeting this tuesday to know our post in this cca and then they revealed the 0h-so-very-long-awaited result. and yes, i got PRODUCER post!! haha.. it's somewhat like production manager where it focuses more a major project that the output of it has to be grand and impactful. i don't where do i begin man... i'm just waiting for my producer to give me some starters...

also, another thing that made me real glad was the revision of economics where i was really upset that all my friends got the same kind of answer for the mcq test 2 except myself. i was so worried that i would fail this time round because i didn't have enough to catch up with what i've missed out and actually cried after taking the test. what's interesting is the revision today, lecturer went through the test questions and my friends realized that they had made a number of mistakes in the test, this also means that i have a higher chance of getting my answers right!! haha...

then came the night.

i thought it was a screwed up day today where i planned to go carmen's house but yet my uni friend needed accompaniment in sengkang since he's got some time to spare and isn't very sure about this place. so i did project work in school for quite some time when i thought it would only take a while. and then brought my friend to sengkang. my gor called to meet me at compass to do something that i wasn't informed of, it was a command that means i can't see carmen. carmen said i could have gotten a free entry to watch "titans" with the benefit from her dad and that she met liwei marcus and wai hong who are also watching the same show which i presume the same time slot. gosh, i felt so terrible hearing that man. this is the time where i was irritated with myself because i don't get to do what i wanna do if i wanna be some one good. it's like i started harboring this thought that it's my life and i should learn to live the way i want it, after all it's the only life i'm living.

after what happened tonight i can assure you that living a life that you desire is never a satisfaction and it'll only turn out to be a life wasted because it's heading to no particular direction without any purpose and reason.

although i have realised the opportunity lost to bond with my friends, something touching occurred. i met my bros after my friend left me for his other appointment. i was only in thought of dinner because i haven't eaten yet but gor brought me to metro and made me choose 2 very expensive bras for myself as a gift from him. he did this on the day when he received his pay from his work as he knows that i have very little of it and most are old, not my size any more, didn't want me to have a potential in getting breast cancer. you know, my mum don't do shopping with me with regards to this, that's why its touching that my gor cast aside his ego to shop with me and even bought me expensive goods on his pay day!

you see, you may be thinking its fortunate to have siblings in the family but not every siblings in a family behaves like this. and think about it, if i really went my way to do what i wanted, i would miss this precious time to bond with my bros and receive their love for me. in a larger scale, if i insisted in going along with my desires, i would have forgone all that surprises and blessings that every one else had prepared for me, wasting their effort as well.

some times, it's really not about what you want, it's what others want to bless you with that would make you appreciate life a little more. so receive and accept joyfully people reading this...

as for me, i don't wanna live a selfish life, i wanna dedicate this life into serving God and loving his people.

news!!

i got my new flip flops yesterday at parkway!! haha.. so happy. so now, my feet won't stink because of my flip flops. yay

gosh, the executive committee post result will be out tomorrow and i'm like.. so anxious about it. wow.. haven't felt this for a long time but oh well, shall not hope for the best. i guess the basis of it is to avoid feeling disappointed i think.

just last 2 nights ago, went for the musical post production celebration where we review the musical once again and then karaoke session. after which a stupid movie called Frat Party and then some card games before going for bed. however, i didn't really get much sleep due to alcohol but oh well... had to wake up early the next day in order to be punctual for sunday service. gosh...

anyway, just days before this faithful day, had a gathering session with the old production committees and members. having supper and chat all the way till late, with that comes consequences where i almost got scolded by my parents. thankfully, it didn't happen.

happy thoughts

Colossians 1:10-12

And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, (11) being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully (12) giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[b] to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.

just find it very comforting to know that those that follows God will be molded into christ-likeness and be ever happy and joyful. and the best blessing is the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom where our ancestors share the same as we are included in the family of God. =p this passage really make me happy

a beautiful yesterday makes totally boring today

i sense that wai is getting real bored at home and needs to do some reading on people's life, so here it goes...

alright

"yesterday~ my life seems so far away... lalalalala oh i believe in yesterday..."

so yesterday, it was FREE CONE'S DAY!!! as usual, it's carmen and my routine to queue up for the ben & jerry's ice cream on this faithful event. but before that, gerald came to my house because he had nothing else to do and decided to "fetch me" to vivo where our never ending queue awaits us. it's ok that carmen had to go out with her mum so she's a little late for the whole queuing process. most importantly, she got 1 free cone!! well, i had 3 1/2 cones and gerald had 1 1/2 cones. wahahahaha!! i'm the ultimate winner!!!!

anyway, after that we went to watch 3d version and it's really good!! i like that show! think the night fury (aka toothless) is so cute!! i wanna watch again! haha

and what's up with today? it's just class in the morning then project discussion n it all finally ended in the afternoon. so here i am, typing my words in this post before i go to bed for a nap. gosh, life's just so dull... ok ok, maybe it's wrong for me to say my life is dull because i've got a lot of commitments already. =p think i wanna go out and have fun. real fun and games... any suggestions?

lopsided

what a rare sight in singapore isn't it? this vehicle is heavily lopsided to the left and it just kept going and going on the road. sometimes, i wonder if we are at any one point like this truck too? being greedy in putting so much weight on our shoulders until the day we couldn't handle it anymore and subsequently break down?

yup, i must say i am like that. but i'm sure i'm not the only one, many singaporeans do that too because they just don't want to sacrifice another trip to and fro. i know my friends, i'm getting too much load on myself, but i'm lightening it already. theory exam is over just yesterday, i think i will have more chances in getting higher salary now. =p

birthday babies gathering cum lou hei

1st table...

2nd table...

if you see double of the same person, i think you might have seen their ghost loitering around the other tables... haha

well, overall, i enjoyed the dinner together guys! think it's meaningful

most of all, thanks for helping out in making gerald's video work. =p

he appreciate it a lot a lot!! and i shall post his reaction in contrary to the video you guys did.

everything today is thoroughly...

gosh.. i can't believe this but i'm actually missing the musical. all that catchy tunes and dancing acting... i don't know when will this opportunity come again. indeed i was whining a few weeks back about how this whole production is consuming my time, but i must say, there is no regret as to how the whole musical turn out. sadly... i couldn't get to meet those friends who came for this musical. still, i must thank gerald, carmen, marcus, liwei, waihong and my family for coming down to this show. i hope you guys didn't find it a waste of time.

here's kisses to all of you!! haha...

many inspiration quotes everyday!!

i've been receiving inspirational quotes everyday for free as it's one of M1's services to brighten people's day. i thought it might be useful for people who actually reads my blog, i really appreciate it. therefore, some little quotes for all of you.. don't mind if i were to quote some from the bible too k? hee

only as high as i reach can i grow, only as far as i seek i can go, only as deep as i look i see, only as much as i dream can i be

- Karen Ravn

if your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and become more, you are a leader

- John Quincy Adams

dreams have only one owner at a time. that's why dreamers are lonely.

- Erma Bombeck

success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.

- Winston Churchill

really great people make you feel that you, too, can become great

- Mark Twain

shoot for the moon in all you do, even if you miss you'll land among the stars

- Brian Littrell

live as you were to die tomorrow. learn as if you were to live forever.

- Ghandi

true silence is the rest of the mind; it is to the spirit what sleep is to the body. nourishment and refreshment.

- William Penn

when i dare to be powerful. to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether i am afraid

- Audre Lorde

if we are growing, we're always going to be out of our comfort zone

- John Maxwell

patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish

- John Quincy Adams

great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together

- Vincent Van Gogh

obstacles are those frightening things that become visible when we take our eyes off our goals

- Henry Ford

all difficult things have their origin in that which is easy, and great things in that which is small

- Lao-Tzu

speak when you are angry - and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret

- Dr. Laurence J. Peter

you can do it if you believe you can

- Napoleon Hill

beauty of whatever kind, in its supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears

- Edgar Allen Poe

if you don't like something, change it. if you can't change it, change your attitude. don't complain

- Maya Angelou

boredom means that you do not appreciate what life has to offer

- Bryon Pulsifer

do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.

- Mother Teresa of Calcutta

you can adopt the attitude there is nothing you can do, or you can see the challenge as your call to action

- Catherine Pulsifer

age is not a matter of the physical condition of the body; it is more a matter of the condition of the mind

- Byron Pulsifer

focus is the ultimate power that can change the way we think, the way we feel, what we do in any moment. we change our lives

- T. Robbins

a man may fulfill the object of his existence by asking question he cannot answer, and attempting a task he cannot achieve

- Oliver Wendell Holmes

if we do the things we are capable of, we would astound ourselves

- Thomas Edison

respect for self is the beginning of cultivating virtue in men and women

- Gordon B. Hinckley

when we complain, we remain. when we whine, we stay behind. when we praise, we raise.

- Jim Bakker

you can have everything in life that you want if you will just help enough other people get what they want.

- Zig Ziglar

the more you give of yourself, the more you will receive for yourself, your family and future

- Al Argo

progress s impossible without change, and those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything

- George Bernard Shaw

people who don't take risks generally make about two mistakes a year. people who do take risks generally make about two big mistakes a year.

- Peter Drucker

an invincible determination can accomplish almost anything and in this lies the great distinction between great men and little men

- Thomas Fuller

be courteous to all, but intimate with few; and let those be well-tried before you give them your confidence

- George Washington

this is a world of action, and not moping and droning in

- Charles Dickens

he that cannot forgive others breaks the bridge over which he must pass himself; for every man has need to be forgiven

- Thomas Fuller

perhaps the very best question that you can memorize and repeat, over and over is, "what is the most valuable use of my time right now?"

- Brian Tracy

the secret to happiness is not in doing what one likes to do, but in liking what one has to do

- Anonymous

an idle brain is the devil's workshop

- English Proverb

as strong as my legs are, it is my mind that has made me a champion

- Michael Johnson

just as despair can come to one only from other human beings, hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings

- Elie Weisel

again and again, the impossible problem is solved when we see that the problem is only a tough decision waiting to be made

- Rober H. Schuller

how a man plays a game shows something of his character, how he loses show all of it

- Anonymous

to live for results would be to sentence yourself to continuous frustration. my oly sure reward is in my action and not from them

- Hugh Prather

if you do not wish to be prone to anger, do not feed the habit; give it nothing which may tend to its increase

- Epictetus

great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds

- Albert Einstein

the greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one

- Elbert Hubbard

our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

to accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan,, but also believe

- Anatole France

we are far more liable to catch the vices than the virtues of our associates

- Denis Diderot

a good deed is never lost: he who sows courtesy reaps friendship; and he who plants kindness gathers love

- Basil

goals are fuel in the furnace of achievement

- Brian Tracy

the ability to concentrate and use your time well is everything if you want to succeed in business -- or almost anywhere else for that matter

- Lee Lacocca

one way to get the most out of life is to look upon it as an adventure. it requires us to take some risks and we can be well rewarded too

- William Feather

you are the handicap you must face. you are the one who must choose your place. the greatest handicap we all have is not realising our own potential

- James A.

the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams and they are committed to attaining them

- Eleanor Roosevelt