questionaires

well.. i figured tt i really have no idea wat to post today so i browse tru blogs n found myself interested in occupying myself with questions tt daryl had alr answered in his post

so... here goes

Starting Time : 10.20pm
Shoe Size: 6
Height : sadly 159cm
Where do you live: Singapore
Favorite Drinks: -nil-

Have you ever...
1. Been on a plane: ya
2. Fallen asleep at school: Ya.
3. Broken someone's heart: Ya.
4. Fell off your chair: aiya ya...
5. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Nope. crazy..
6. Saved e-mails: for wat ah?
7. What is your room like: filled with lots of instruments currently. 3 in fact. 3 big ones
8. The last thing you ate: porridge.
9. Ever had chicken pox? yes
10. Sore throat: ya but Not now
11. Broken nose: Nope.
12. Do you believe in love at first sight: not at all
13. Do you like picnics: ya

Who was the last person...
14. you danced with: Cant remember.
15. Last person who made you smile: my bro justin
16. You last yelled at: Cant remember.

Today did you...
17. Talk to someone you like: yup
18. Kiss anyone: yup
19. Fall sick: Nope.
20. Talk to an ex: neh dun hav
21. Miss someone: ya... i miss carmen
22. Eat: of cuz
23. Best feeling in the world: feeling contented
24. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yep. few
25. What's under your bed: silver keyboard
26. Who do you really hate: No one.
27. What time is it now? 10.31pm
28. Is there a person who is on your mind now? nope... thinking of slping already
29. Do you have any siblings? yup
30. Do you want children? Not at the moment.
31. Do you smile often? yup
32. Do you like your handwriting? yup
33. Are your toenails painted? yup
34. Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in? my bro's
35. What color shirt are you wearing now? black
36. What were you doing at 7pm yesterday? shopping in ntuc
37. You can't wait till: the coming of Jesus. life on earth stressful ah...
38. Are you a friendly person? should be
39. Do you have any pets? nope
40. Where is the person you have feelings for right now? Home
41. Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you? yup
42. Do you sleep with the TV on? nope
43. Have you ever crawled through a window? nope.. can try 1 day
44. Are you too forgiving? dun think so
45. Are you closer to your mother or your father? hmmm... not sure
45. Who was the last person you cried in front of? gerald. cuz he made me cry
46. How many people can you say you really love? A few.
47. Do you eat healthy? Nope. trying though
48. Do you still have pictures of you and your ex? no ex lah
49. Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? yes
50. If you're having a bad day, who will you most likely go to? pray. carmen n gerald. mabe bertwin too.. both my bros
51. Are you loud or quiet most of the time? moderate
52. Are you confident? nope
53. 5 things you were doing 10 years ago: I was 9.
1. I was studying in CHIJ katong primary sch,
2. only know to obey
3. tomboy then
4. dun wear skirts cuz i'll spoil them
5. blur
54. 5 things on my to-do list today:
1. do devotion
2. help out in church children's camp
3. piano lesson
4. slp
5. bring keyboard home
55. 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. go vacation with ppl ..heh
2. buy houses everywhere n rent them whenever im no using tt house
3. do things tt i have always wanted to do tt requires to pay cash.
4. give some cash away to even up some things
5. pay debts
56. 5 of my bad habits:
1. getting to independent
2. not eating well
3. not resting or slping enough
4. got too stressed up n i didnt noe
5. whine abt being a gal sucks
57. 5 places you've lived in:
1. kampong house. damn nice but dirty
2. singapore
3. 1 room in HDB flat
4. At chalets
5. master room in a terrace
58. 5 jobs I've had:
1. chalefare for kids central show
2. selling ice cream in anderson's ice cream
3. waitressing in aranda, prive cafe
4. waitressing in true blue cuisine
5. tuitoring

blading

went blading at east coast park today n bloody hell got myself on the ground so many times.

it's kinda pressurizing to keep up th pace with every1 else since they r all better than u in balancing.

but oh well, its ok.

few scratches shouldn't be a prob to a person hu is really scared of bleeding.

cant help it can i?

im greedy for my own blood, wat m i suppose to do?

lick up every drop of my blood tt got spilled? siao.. tt would make me a vampire alr

plus its unhygienic =p

come to think of it, i remembered how i got carmen injured

so now i wonder if its ok to actually ask my beloved husband to join me on skating

its boring to learn all alone.

shu han was a better pillar than gerald loh... at least she doesnt run away like gerald did

however, they improved so fast becuz they own their own blades...

no fair loh.. sianz...

n im quite certain tt my competitive character is being triggered by gerald, which i fear i might get addicted to

as such, i shall not own any blades n be a slow learner... save money too. wahaha

i miss my phone

so pretty right? so slick...
how i wish my bf can be like it..
y? cuz can......................................

- bring along with me wherever i wanna go (including toilet. can play music while i bathe! so cool!! n its not pervetic to even take nude pics of me loh... haha)
- smart. does the things i want it to
- has good memory 1gb ho!!
- can play games with me (countless times till i got tired of it and it will not complain.)
- slim. can keep it with me with whatever i wear
- reasonable weight cuz its so smart
- captures good memories with me
- makes me laugh with the funny faces it mutates...
- it has a softer touch tt knows exactly wat i want once i touch it. (eee... sounds wrong)
- cool character. (gives of blue lights tt is very attractive)
- it can also receive information tt i want from frens (bluetooth. haha...)
- it is bz onli when im bz.. (receiving calls of coz)
- it notifies me of things i do not know (incoming sms from frens r such important info tt i cannot miss)

meaning of names..

Spruce
christmas tree
spruce other meaning is to be happy...
enegise the atmosphere or people to be in high spirit..
also means to make onself neat n smart

Wesley

English evangelist and hymnist.

Gerald

a male given name: from Germanic words meaning “spear” and “rule.”

["Gerald: An Exceptional Lazy Functional Programming Language", A.C. Reeves et al, in Functional Programming, Glasgow 1989, K. Davis et al eds, Springer 1990]

Carmen

a male or female given name: from a Latin word meaning “song.”

one of the crew of a streetcar or the like, as the motorman.

(alamak... can be a guy also..)

Constance

no meaning found.. wahuhuh

L + O + V + E

L is for the way you Look at me

O is for the Only 1 i see

V is Very Very extraodinary

E is Even more than anyone that you adore

n LOVE is all that i can give to YOU

LOVE is more than just a game for 2

2 in Love can make it take my heart and please don't break it

LOVE was made for me and YOU

response to DaRyL

ok.. this response goes to show tt i've read ur post.

thx bro+in+christ for being concern over the matter ur sis is struggling with.

i won't take it as nosey...

or unless u preferred to be referred as nosey then i've got nth much to say... hehe

with regards to the service to God in church, i dunno if it is wise to serve 2 service tt does not have a break in between. some times i would wonder if it is ok to eat into my fellowship time with my brothers and sisters in church when i dun go for cells. it's not like i wanna skip or dread to go cell, their cell always clashes with my sch activities and it's really far from where i live. this would result in a lack of bonding with my family in christ. is tt a good thing? is it healthy? i m super unsure... i enjoy serving God. however, i do not enjoy being a solo in tt commitment. i yearn for a group to serve God together. used to a have band practices on sat but it stopped because ppl r not free due to work or army... stuff like tt is really demoralizing to the soul tt's drying up.

in this church i m in, i cant seem to see myself growing anywhere now. i'm stagnant at this level at this moment. to change to a church tt i may grow spiritually, i really wonder if i shud do tt because i believe there muz be a reason as to y God has placed me in this family, in this church and at this time. this church is somehow connected to my family so, to see it get corrupted day by day, hurts me yet disallows me to leave it alone. because of a simple reason = it's my church.

i'm just hoping to find my reason back in this church even though i may not be growing spiritually more.

the wake was held for my used+to+be good fren's mum. how can i not help much after 9yrs of frenship? all i could do was to stand there n listen to the service, eat, watch n leave. this matter has its complications on its own. its a frenship prob n i'm already lighten my grip on this frenship. in fact, close to losing it for not even holding on tight enough for it.

just for fun

Put your MP3 on shuffle, and write down the first line of the
first 20 english songs you hear.
The first line of the 21st song is the title.


title:

i know i stand in line until u think u have e time to spend an evening with me

i was so high i did not recognize
i used to get away with so much

there used to be a grey tower alone on the sea
lithium, dun wanna lock me up inside

u can do it
u n the moon are a beautiful sight to me
an apple a day

juz 1 on 1 tt's the way we do it babe
recently i've been
it's time to turn off e light
e 1st time...
rent on e 3rd floor, not wat we asked for

playground school bell rings again
I would fight not to ever fall too deep

wat's ur fav scary movie
maybe i could be better on my own
perfect by nature
could be ur eyes could be ur smile
if tmr nv comes
time

...

wanted to blog sth but had no mood to..

just got a new phone, c902 maroon, last sat n it kinda sucked last night

got my bro to get it repaired now.. got c902 black for him yesterday too..

was glad to see him happy then..

however, many things happened for the past 5 days..

had been going to nat's house for the wake and everything, since sat.

for 1, it makes me feel like im going tru a session on 'how to achieve mood swings'. reason being is tt, the bad news only came in on fri morn 12am and on the same day, im celebrating my bro's 21st bday. it kinda sucks cuz u dunno how u should be feeling. everything became so mixed up on 2 extreme ends.

for 2, i got a new phone on sat. the very phone i had been eyeing n wanting for so long n on tt same day, im going to help out in the wake at night. tried to make myself useful then but i guess shiyun n cui were much more helpful than i can offer.

for 3, church ppl totally missed my oresence becuz i was serving the 1st service. dun u know it's really sucky? no fellowship with every1 at all.. i begged bert to stay n play for 1st service with me n im super glad he did. only then i recognized tt i can only be alone n used in this church, in this manner. i have no life here...i'm saying im dying here in this church. asked God y have i been placed here n i still dunno the answer. to serve Him? i can always do tt in other churches. once again, struggling to stay. knowing tt im made a 'miss' in every1's activities. not an 'important' person anymore... or should i say not a 'wanted' n needed' person... afterwhich, i got pangseh by my bro in the afternoon, got some misunderstaindings with kookoo. but im really happy to see him at my house area tt day cuz my day was turning bad to worse. for tt, got him to join me in the wake thingy too. once again, got useless at the wake. i couldnt be where nat is becuz i dunno her well enough like cui does. most of my info was grabbed from cui. realized my worry for nat's family was needless, pointless n unwanted. i guess her day was pretty well managed when cui was around to make every1 her n her bros happy again.

for 4, went with my bro to the crematorium. had nth much to say to nat cuz i really dunno wat to say. she would most probably say tt my presence is already comforting enough but i doubt it is the case. felt more like a stranger. i leave it as tt cuz it's a day for nat n family. dun wanna make it worse... got my bro the phone n once again glad to see him happy. went studying in kookoo's house n found my phone is having probs reading my memory stick as well as carrying out a smooth conversation in a call.

it had always been in my heart to wanna dedicate a song to the Gay family. especially nat's Dad but i found no courage to do so cuz i dun wanna break down while i dedicate it during the wake
n the song goes...

'live' by celine dion

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A Million Stars Light
This Beautiful Night
This Is Not A Night To Die
Let Me Sing And Dance
Beneath The Sky
I Have Such Love To Give
To Give
I Want A Chance To Live

Live
For The One I Love
LoveAs No One Has Loved
GiveAsking Nothing In Return
Free
Free To Find My Way
Free To Have My Say
Free To See The Day
Be Like I Used To Be
Like Wild Bird Free
With All The Life In Me

LiveFor The One I Love
LoveAs No One Has Loved
Give Asking Nothing In Return

Though This World Tears Us Apart
We're Still Together In My Heart
I Want The World To Hear My Cry
And Even If I Have To Die
Love Will Not Die
Love Will Change The World
LiveFor The One I Love
Love As No One Has Loved
GiveAsking Nothing In Return
I'll Love Until Love Wears Me Away
I'll Die And I Know My Love Will Stay
And I Know I Know My Love Will Stay

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yup, its suppose to serve as an encouragement to live on...

while i wrote this, i wanna try sth funny tts been done by liwei n shuhan
but shit lah... no phone to do it... cant try.. shall do tt for my next post