i've been fooled!!

dumb dumb jac..
really wonder if tricking me is really tt fun...
i muz say u haven't changed a bit in terms of tricking me into believing u...
still, even though u tricked me
i really did enjoy my day with u shopping down town area
doing all tt rush to meet ur... er.. neighbour n doing tt cheque thingy
still didnt believe u were trying to tell me e truth during dinner though
until i read the sms... ok... u win... u fooled me lah
yes yes... hav been tricked for dunno how many times by u
then again... im really amazed at how u can be so opened abt some really PRIVATE stuff...
u noe wat i mean right?? PRIVATE STUFF!!!
haiya...

n then chalet with husband!!!
so fun.. i havent had such a childhood with kids already!!
kinda like to bully ur lil cousin!! haha... oops

i so dislike being a gal

being a gal juz sux... in my case...
it sux more... hmph
irritating thingy
if onli im 1 of them manz...
i'm so gonna kill all tt troublesome pests
terrible... onli make me suffer in pain

the call

juz ended a call from an important person
wow.. a direct source from a victim
she left me speechless abt a fellow
i really pity tt fellow at this very instant man...
i think im so gonna bend n break tt fellow
sigh... sound so evil... but it has to be done

exams R OoooOOver!!! time to have FUN!!!

exams R finally OoooOOver!!!
n it's definitely time to have FUN!!!
wahhahaha...

my last paper doesnt seem bad though
i mean... i juz crap my ans lah..
shouldnt be tt bad i guess

anyway, i m so gonna go shopping
then baking n finally...
dota-ing!! wahaha.... have been controlling very hard already
im gonna shop with my bro amos for pants!!
havent done so for a very long time
yay.. bro-sis bonding
luv my bro lots though we still do argue at times
hehe... i tell u he's very sweet lah
u noe i was so suay for exam this morning
i woke at 5am n did some studying
left house mins after my bro amos did
guess wat? i didnt realise i was actually wearing the exact same things as yesterday lah
haha... nvm... i realised i didnt bring my pens while on the bus
n when i got to the bus stop to change bus
i missed it juz a few secs behind
u noe... watching the bus drive away while in a hurry is not a very good feeling
i got very scared lah... anxious to be exact
no doubt take cab... no prob
but it's a real prob when u also forgot to bring cash!!!
started asking ppl for help... man...
was having slow heart attack in the bus lah...
pluz the traffic jam in the highway really blew my calming mood away
was in a total state of anxiousness tt i did a lil prayer
time was 830 while in the entrance of the jam
paper was 930 n tt jam could take up 1hr to dissipate
no pen! no time! it's crazy..
thank God my bro reached sch n had money...
tt means i could take cab.. then again... i wanna be independent
ok... i ended up still changing bus instead of cab coz i realised tt
hey, i can depend on God
time was 900 when i got to tampines area
i reached at 912 grabbing pens from frens
n of coz my bro was relieved...
im glad my bro was able to help me tru..
no.. he didnt manage to get me to sch early..
but he helped to calm me down...
n my paper wasn't done like my 1st paper..
did it like nobody's business... hehe so happy
so happy to hav bros
so happy to hav a God
n i've composed a new song!!! as a hymn... hopefully
composed it while in the midst of mugging
dumb dumb inspiration dunno how to choose time...
got me a lil irritated but i cant seem to rule over it
oh well.. shall sing it this sunday then...
hopefully yunguan dun mind

oh... ya..
i kinda hurt person c last 2 nights ago
sigh... cant get used to treating a guy with a higher priority
see... im so not tuned to getting a bf now..
y is my mama eager abt it? sigh...
she's like feeling all so sad for person c
more than me leh... im so amazed how lil feminity i hav in me manz...

ok... tt's it for the update..
i m gonna enjoy today man!!

sunday - free!!

was doing some window-shopping while waiting for jaclyn to arrive
ya... 1 hr waiting... need to kill time
so i did this:

yay!!
met up with jaclyn for some fun after church
wahahaha
so glad to see her once again =p
yup... alright
i shall be honest... totally honest
knowing tt im totally clueless abt how a gal shud behave n maintain themselves
i had her to teach me in my house 1st hand
yup..
1st lesson was abt make-up
had many tries for it
hmm.. not tt bad... realise a new tool call pencil eyeliner tt's pretty cool
more like scary to me when u try applying it
hehe... gosh i lack proper blusher n brush for blush
oh well... heck it
not really keen to make-up anyway
had to learn for the sake of work



wow... then i dota at night!! so fun...
shall play again!! tt's after exams!

suddenly i find emailing is fun!!

ok, side track a bit
this is the amt of food my pa bought for my bros n i to consume for exams n project
n im feeling very guilty already to not do well in today's paper
gosh...

my bro amos bought me lunch today!!
so sweet of him right? ya... i too think so
n here's a pic of wat i did to my drink...
think the straw is too strong, so it damaged the drink's cover
hehe...



emailing youth pastor these days so tt he can catch up with activities in my life
kinda find it fun to write an email now after receiving written emails from some1 u dun really noe
haha... ok tt's it for today

troubled conversation

had a short conversation with nat's mum this afternoon unexpectedly
she came up to me initially to settle pianist schedules
n then... we tokked a lil more n apparently our conversations linked to nat's current major prob
gosh... again....
but this time, it really pricked my heart real hard
she told me things i already knew
but it's how she could express it to me telling me she's really hurt n disappointed inside tt made me felt like i really gotta do sth abt it
for tt instant i really wanna tok to nat
sadly... she was bz tokking to linxi tt got me hesitate a while b4 approaching her
sigh.. e most i could do at tt time was to give her a hug n rush off to meet dareius

i think it's really so random to hav lunch with iris n dareius
didnt noe iris n my life crossed each otheres at this period of time
we shared pretty odd stuff in common
onli realised tt while in kfc coz we both were sorta chitter-chattering while dareius kept quiet n listened
hehe.. so funny
n then we head to his house for movie "men in white"
damn funny show lah.. can still remember the 'lao sai' guy called ah leng
haha... hilarious
but i slept towards the end of the show.. hehe.. couldnt resist

tuition was quite a drag today
she's very distracted as usual n refuses to focus
this is becoming a prob now coz im not getting her attention
im quite amazed tt her english actually improved
i wonder which part of my facilitation is effective to her man

this is how my blog is suppose to look like by the way...
still thinking of putting some other stuff around tt anime stuff

movie 'SECRET' last night

I LIKE THAT MOVIE!!!
alright. shall tok abt last night

in music CDS
again... bear's clique joke abt me again.
hey.. this time im well dressed today k!
guess wat they said : 'wah.. last wk a fish monger turn a miss universe today'
dun they get u on ur nerves some times?
then we took lots of photos.. n i mean lots!!
its not even a lesson today. it's juz presentation but most part of it was pic taking
haha... bear's gang were somehow really happy to take pic with me
u shud juz see their faces..
n there was this guy in their clique trying to act sexy beside me
ya.. can see he clearly wants to take pic with me. hahhaha... so funny
but then... after tt i quickly disappeared from my classmates to do some self study in the library coz they would drag me along for a tea break together
i cant afford that... im way behind my studies

alright... the movie!!!
dareius was late!!! 22 mins late!! ok lah... 20 mins late coz we finally sat down at our seats at 7:22pm
but he's late... no nice hehe
the movie is like a cross breed between lakehouse n death note
it's got those rules n notes like in the death note saying this score piece will bring u to ur destined guy if played on a particular grand piano
the plot is similar to lakehouse where they will meet each other in future or past
hmm.. its a pleasant show of 2 ppl in love
i think it's so romantic to love a guy hu shares the same interest as u
in this show its abt piano
how i wish i could meet a guy tt loves piano too... wahuhuhuh...
okok think the most fascinated part to me would be the piano battle between jay n prince of piano
very beautifully played.. wonder if jay is really tt good... hmm... if he is i better buck up

look at us:

pretty n handsome... er...take it as handsome since he's my cousin lah... hehe


yup. disgusted face for him for being late heehee


sadded.. haha no such word


after movies
we played arcade games!! haha.. coz i dun wanna go home
dun wanna face bks again mah..
u shud noe wat i mean
haha... we played till around 10.30pm?
n head to a corner to tok abt how our lives had led to the current us
n we too tok abt some secrets we hav, some probs we face
hmm.... due to tt dumb dumb call tt i shudnt have picked
if not we werent be tokking abt those stuff
really hope nth will happen between his family n mine
its the upper generation tt im most feared of

my day ended with him sending me home on cab
sigh... wanted to take the bus actually...
guess i didnt wanna rush home n m used to taking the bus back late at night
oh well...

oh my.. is it true?

so pretty!! earrings from cui n justin bro!! hehe


gosh... im very confused...
are my past feelings for him gonna confuse my mind n keep up with him again?
he asked me out for a movie together alone twice
he told me he dun wanna call any1 along
so i respect tt but i wasnt sure if i shud go...
so i left the choice to him... again.. playing the choice a-b game
he chose neither a nor b...
he picked c, for constance. juz c
pretty smart ans n im taken in by it
so... ok.. i agreed to go watch 'secret' (issit a love show?)
sadly.. he had to postpone the show due to his ma's guests coming over to his house for a taste of his dish
we r going tmr night
dunno how it would be

anyway, i went for the divo diva meeting yesterday n guess wat
i've been selected to train under the teacher for jazz pieces and as accompaniment for singers!!
i m gonna noe lots of singers!! im gonna work with many singers in tp!!!
yay!!! hahaha.. so happy
n tt means i might be performing for the nov art festival with the singers!!!
wow... how exciting

gosh... stress
yunguan is gonna take grade 5 theory music exam in nov
n im her teacher!! wah... so scared
my name will be registered with hers in the cert n im not a gualified teacher yet!!!
aiya.. so scary n pressurizing
dunno if she can score for it or not...
really hope she get at least a merit man...
then tt would be the same as me!! wahahaha

went to the dental this morning for braces consultation
yes yes... putting on braces soon...
but not so soon... think around nov this yr
well, they sure like to charge high when it comes to bills
but this isnt wat i want actually... its my parents
im very aware tt spending such money is not necessary
then again, i noe tt they wont feel right if the braces are not done
i noe... they dun wanna be seen as bias parents dotting only the eldest
im tru with tt actually but they insist
but im more interested in our financial status
it is gonna pressurize me further if my bro were to quit his job
he cant handle his studies while doing a part time job
but he also cant afford to screw up his last yr in uni
so i guess im the onli 1 tt can afford to screw up my studies
i m aware im not doing well in my studies either
i dunno if this is the right roue to choose but i guess..
im gonna try adapt to it

my husband came to my house to study today!!!
haha... more like taking notes from me.
n suay gerald had to tok to me tru msn...
haha so funny... my husband jealous!!
but cannot blame lah... she's not online at tt time
but its super funny how gerald can tok to me whenever my husband is around me
wahahaha... think he's so not gonna tok to me any more in fear of carmen being present around me to catch him red handed

Jacuzzi-ing last night!!

oh man... i love relaxing in my husband's jacuzzi
juz dunno y she starts itching everywhere after tt
hmm...
basically, i was working on my prokject the whole afternoon
thought relaxing a bit with my husband would be very fruitful to both of us
so.. ya.. we did.. met up with her near night
went for jacuzzi!! then to sauna...
then to the swimming pool side for a full view of the sky
wow.. i think it's so romantic... haha
oh well... yes yes..
was home late last night... 12am is expected when i left my house late
hmm.. kinda used to clocking home at tt time already
n now... back to project-but wat's there left to do? i wonder...

"Boy meets World" ROX!!!!

not my day

an article i came across last night
it's good that i didnt turn out to be like tt gal in the article even though i so wanna be a boy
ya... bet my bros would be happy with the way i m now even though im still a lil tomboyish


alright.. i received bad news this morning n had no mood to dress up for sch...
in the end... ya.. i dressed very very extremely casually
guess wat? got scolded by my cds classmates for it
they told me to dress nice today for pic taking....
it seems like i've ruined the whole plan... haiya... feel so guilty now
shall dress up for them next wk ba... =p


then... towards night, my husband accompanied me to the sony ericsson service centre to refund my earpiece
hmmm... we queued for an hr juz for it
guess wat? the manager not there... they couldnt give me a new earpiece!!!
wahuhuhuhuh... im so sad lah....
so SAD!!!


tt dumb dumb sc is still bugging me.. shit lah..
sigh.... boh bian... need sth from him thus, need to keep in contact...
wonder y he's still bugging..


sorry.. abit emo today...
im a bit tired of the things im doing right now...
meaning.. the commitments
i wanna take a break... i wan a vacation!!!
yes yes!! go australia meet my beloved cousin n childhood fren!!!
man im really looking forward for that day
i need a life


thinking of starting a band..
shit... actually... thinking of starting 2 bands
1 from divo diva n the other from my music cds
hmm..
wahhh.. it'll be damn fun n tiring
how bout the current band?
it's dying...

finished

well... was really suay today
was late for exam... 3 mins late
tt's becoz i missed my bus n had to wait pretty long for it
then... i tot of getting a cab... but but but
realized i got no cash in my wallet...
this sux


nvm... during exam.
i made the right choice!!
yay.. to play my pieces 1st before scales
but my scales will pull everything down...
my aural too...
i'm so 'finished'

piano exam is today!!!

muz wish me All The Best!!!
im going to tt red light district alone!! wah.. so scary...
but... muz jia you!!
pluz got quiz this morning... sianz...

again, im stating this.. she's juz a fren

i cant believe im typing this again... but its seems its needed to
alright. here it goes...


at this point of time, in an ambiance of disappointment radiated by ppl hu had loved her so deep
how could u juz stay still n do nth... then again... we all tried
in this case, im considered helpless for this matter already
wat more can i do other then to juz watch them perform their love song to each other?
every1 makes mistakes.. agree very much
but it's scary tt u dun get it after so many blows of ache a mistake carries
every1 is different. u r different from me, i from u n she from us.
i will not pamper her any longer
accept? i've already accepted the fact tt her case has no security n had let go of wat muz be done to help her becoz i still luv her
one thing big serene said was right
i love her too much to keep her from harm, disappointment n shame
it's time i let go...
n time did tell me another thing... she's no longer hu i once noe
a change of heart is all tt matters to change a frenship
there's no value in her i see to keep such closeness
i've lost trust in her... u noe it well
i've lost her interest at heart
i've lost her purity of heart n mind to some1 so shrewd
he is influential... wat will she become? i fear this too...
do u think i'm not annoyed with this?
im growing tired with it
she's juz a fren now.. dun expect much from it

argh... i cant be sick...

if not for this headache, nausea, sore throat,droopy eyes
i could have been more effective and efficient in completing pmi project today!!
how irritating..
felt quite bad to have Fion doing most of the stuff actually
could hav left sch early to catch up with my slp but i chose to stay knowing that Fion wouldnt be able to feel comfortable if i leave her to do all the work
after tt... i figured tt i've got no more energy left for cello tonight
so u can guess it...
i skipped today's prac.
skipped last wk as well for church bbq event
actually there's more to it but i shant say.... wahahaha
ok.. i'm going to slp!! yay
tmr music test!! OOoooSH!!!

oh no.. another? u gotta be kidding...

another fellow juz asked me out for dinner on 2
he wanna noe me more n blah blah blah....
another 1???
ok. tt's it... im not gonna make frens with any more guys
only if its necessary will i give my msn
phone no. is a no no....
thank God i've got my cousin to help me out this round
juz hope tt he wont surface n bug me....