pictures and words!! yeah~

i can finally find a time to blog!! yes!
ok anyway, the things that have been keeping me bz was
- my school CO practice for the coming up concert on 3rd and 4th april
- work in true blue of coz
- tuition.. still looking for other tutors to replace me
- piano lessons

i'm trying to catch up with my
- friends
- practices needed for piano n cello
- sleep or rest
- family
- watching shows that i've been delaying

think it's quite a bother to get so bz with things every single day and lost touch with what was once important to u. it's like...
it's not longer u to be doing thethings u like or want.
all that u r doing is needed, fixed and dead...
my current schedule nv change.. it's always work to sch to tuition to piano lesson to church
it's like a robot manz... scheduled to do all that every wk
so i'm gonna quit working when my sip starts.
i'm gonna claim back my suppose-to-be life manz




this is a photo of what i was doing during orchestra prac
erm... the conductor was focusing on other sectionals so i was juz playing with those that was sitting behind me. haha... the double bass players
as u can see... its photo battle once again...



a rose from gerald!! that was on.. hmm.. when ah? last sat? think so ba..
ya... and he cut me 1 to bring home... yay!!
but too bad lah... this rose isnt the ones he grown himself
it's the matured ones when we bought the rose plant... oh well
i want white rose!!



haha.. couldn't help it.. so gay



my cute Ya'an has grown quite big...
and she can walk now!! she's like walking all around to every part of my house lah..
haha.. so cute



it was this day i went to many places with carmen and gerald
on that day, i was pei-ing carmen during her shift break so that she wont be bored like i was the last time
we went to clarke quay, esplanade, marina square, suntec... all on foot
wahahaha.. we r so powerful!!


this is a view of clarke quay


wahhhhh.... female version of stamford raffles ah!! fantastic right?
hahaha... wasted ah... if not for the bag i guess t really does look quite like stamford manz...
oh well, it was real fun there. hehe




ok here again, spotting snails under a bright daylight on one fine day going out for some occasion that i had now forgotten.
this snail is so huge!! look at my toes as compared to it manz.. so big!!




oh and this was what cui was doing during sermon
how sweet of her right? she drew me a family of faces...
kookoo she


oh yes!
this is fides!! wahahaha... finally get to post pics after my com got its wires connected
alright... this was her, dressing all that tomboyish roaming around compass point with me
wonder when will be her next time coming back to singapore and visit this beautiful gorgeous me... wahuhuh...
hehe

it's a new day, it's a new life, it's a new start

knowing that my grades seems to be quite troubling, there's no way of turning back the time

i'm taking things as it is

indeed, i'm very very upset with my results as well as how much effort i've put in

it juz makes me feel that all my hardwork has juz gone a waste

i know i'm missing the point here...

God has a plan for me but it's juz discouraging to see that what i've been struggling for isn't gonna anywhere successful...

so...
meeting liansi about it? to tok about results? relationships? walk with God?

i dunno man...

honestly speaking, liansi may be wise in choosing her route in life as well as advising ppl of their decisions

still, is this what u really want in the end?

taking the safest route that's not what u really want?

feeling so unsatisfied with my results becoz i know it's not the route i really wanted

besides, i have boundaries that juz disallows me to go my own path... the path i've always wanted where i can excel in

how great isnt it?

cui nat, i appreciate u guys concern...
n i hereby announcing that i m not well...

not well in everything...

in the jobs i do

in the academics i'm studying in now

in my family

in my health

thank God He's been there for me

He had already prepared a job for me which requires me to keep EATING

so that my health will not be a very big prob

i dunno what path has He prepared for me but ...

it's a new day today

it's a new start for the next sem

and a new life i'm living everyday

how i wished everything will just stop and let me take a break for a breathe of fresh air
i'm once again.. tired

pics time!!

this is a pic of gerald's prezzie to me on my birthday...
sth that he made long time ago that i finally decided to hang up only recently
it's butterflies not flowers for ur info

ducky bought me chocs!! unlike my bf right? wahuhuhuh...
gerald so evil... but anyway, those chocs r real expensive manz...
think it's a few bucks for just 3. it's alcoholic by the way



yay!! a drawing i drew with charcoal
well, i made it viewin negative image coz it looks cool. hehe



haha...
my bf's face



ok, was playing in spotlight the other day and this was what e 2 kookoos did
STFU = ?
Shut The F*** Up? how boring...
how bout See That Funny U... hmm... dunno what u can represent though =p


this is a pic of a tiny itsy bitsy snail i came across 1 night when i was heading home. isn't it cute?
i think it is.. it's so tiny, tt's y i decided to take a pic of it
anyway, it makes me wonder how it can actually travel so much with it's tiny body moving at such a slow pace.
it's amazing how much energy it has to move on to a new environment on a new day.
well, i can't resist to admire such lil creatures that God had created to remind us of our life on earth. so beautiful





and this is another pic of a big big snail i saw while on my way home the next night, again
ya noe, it's really encouraging to see it cuz by its appearance, it show a lot about how much it had experience in its life and how much danger it was put in given that any creature may just crush it due to their ignorance of their existence.
wow... didnt know u can learn so much from just a simple creature on earth right?




suguan's wedding... i wonder how r they right now..
muz be feeling all that happiness being together in their honeymoon period now...
wow.. juz can't believe one by one, ppl r starting to get married... wahuhuh...
feeling so old already cuz im already old enough to be invited to their wedding... wahuhuh...
she looks gorgeous isn't she? think her make-up was just right

true blue

alright... i guess my work started a lil too soon. was intending to find a new job during the 1st wk of hols but i think i already signed on 1.
today's my 1st day at work in true blue and it wasn't that bad as i would have expected it to be
lunch would be provided for the morn shift manz.. how cool
my fellow colleagues were frenly to carmen and me...
well, they do gossip abt our managers too.. how great to hear that on our 1st day right?


anyway, i have been thinking...
just a few things..
m i working too hard?
y m i working so hard?
i noe money isn't my drive to work... it's more like my family
but y work so hard?
even as i work, i think i've lost the purpose of doing the things that i do every day