1 down and 3 to go..

oh yes... one down to freedom... i just can't wait to be free from this invisible bondage that deprives me from friends and fun. argh.. oh well... i should really invest some time for myself to catch up with the things i like since i've given more space from responsibilities. alright, shall do that after exams... i wanna stayover carmen's place!!!! i wanna go shopping spree!!! i wanna achieve grade 5 violin! i wanna compose a lot of songs! i wanna jam!

by the way, i really do wish i could treat church like how i would treat FPA. you may ask why can't i do it all the same? well, there is this thing called overwriting authority that i do not wish to end up doing and knowing that by doing so will not reap pleasant return so why bother? a lot of times, i thought there is a lot to be done to work on the youths interest and getting them to know God in the things they meet everyday but somehow i just don't know if the things we are doing actually help the youths. i really wonder... are we doing our job properly? something i realized about people is that when a small group gather to work on something with joy, more would like to join in. i tried sharing with the committee back then but they chuck this idea aside. so.. i suppose i've got nothing else to say other than voicing out problems i see.. recently they went to USS due to some sudden change. the funny thing is, why don't all the youths get excited for it even though they've been there before? another problem, the sudden change of the USS outing may be inevitable but i wonder aren't all outings focused on developing youths? so what happened to the attendance? what exactly is the core problem? i really wonder if they actually saw the core problem.. i saw it and knew what has to be done but i'm definitely not in any place to say anything even though i'm suppose to have. i didn't wanna take up the responsibility to lead the solution because it'll take a while for it to progress and i'm not staying in this church long enough for a reason. so it's not wise to start leading or suggesting the committee towards a different direction. haiya... if only... seriously... if only i knew the Big plan. i wouldn't feel so impatient and irritated with all that has happened, for sure...

studying bullshit

oh yay!! i finally changed blogskin and everything else. oh well.. this post is just to test out how it really looks and all..

anyway, i've got 2 major projects on hand in which this projects requires me to fly all around in gathering the right people to make it work. i don't think i'll be able to do it myself and i know FPA will help me with it. in any case, i'm entering my exams next monday and i really hope it will all work out fine given the amount of time spent on FPA and studies. not sure by going to lectures will help me secure a pass for this semester but i really hope for the best. some of the subjects were clearly off my mind because i find it a bullshit and most people agrees with me. still, no choice, need to pass, i'm gonna be studying BULLSHIT for another 3 wks! argh... will pretty stink after that...

almost the last lap in FPA

On this faithful day, I realized how much FPA had grown to become. It has gained back it's popularity, proven its ability, given opportunity and had learned to nurture other clubs which I was too ignorant to have noticed. Indeed, I have pushed FPA to this height and now it is finally enjoying its glory. All within just one year, so much has changed. I’m proud of my members who’ve worked so hard with me and will always treasure that bond we shared throughout this journey. It’s too bad I’m a person who doesn’t remember what I’ve done during the process of building but a person who only knew what is to be done based on situations. Always looking ahead for FPA but was never able to keep explicit knowledge in order to leave a trail for the others in line. Seeing FPA soaring up above the other clubs just made me dread to end my appointment but knowing that my work here is done and completed, there is no other purpose for me to stay in where I am. Watching FPA reap its harvest was the greatest joy I have for this club. Its recognitions from clubs as well as school had brought me great satisfaction and I’m truly grateful for FPA in giving me this opportunity to lead and also to know myself better.

on a side not:

the school hopes to get a montage from us on student week and open house. if it is done well, they would like to PURCHASE it from us. how cool is that right? FPA is awesome!

It is done.

Ya know, I thought the club still needs a lot of time to stabilize, given the no. Of truly involved people. But this few days blew me away and also caused my understanding of FPA to change. I suppose FPA has grown quite a bit and I was lagging behind in realizing it's growth.

I have stepped down from presidency. Hurray!! I don't know why but I feel glad for FPA to once again be on track with other clubs. Format, structure, bonds have been set so now it's up to the next president to maintain or improve on it. Although I'm still considered an exco despite stepping down, I'm gonna be a shadow there as negotiated with my successor. Hee