stuff

wow... it's been quite some time since i blogged
anyway, just bought a bikini yesterday and gerald is paying for it!! wahaha
was telling carmen tt im already starting to sound like tai tai
e only few things left is a credit card and a proper job from gerald
was shopping around marina square with carmen yesterday during break and got ourselves attracted to this bikini shop
well... it was fun to try all sort of different ones
shall i post the pics here?? hmmm... i wonder


gerald has been in camp for 6 days already
wonder how is he coping.. really dun wan him to fall sick cuz tt will be troublesome
shouldnt have agreed to meet him on thurs morn.. now, it makes me miss him more
sigh... how irritating man...
i really wonder how i can still be ok with it...


oh shit... while typing this, i realized i'm gonna be late for my church rehearsal if i dun start bathing and washing up now
argh... wasted... no time to really blog in peace

TPCO Chinese Rhapsody

it's amazing how this wk has almost ended...
it's friday night and i've finished my concert
i can still remember i made gerald wear nail polish(pink) not very long ago.
not sure when to be exact but i actually took photos of it.. hehe




haha... there.. he loves it!!!
can see him smiling with his fingernails painted right?
see... i didn't force him nor threaten him to paint his nails k...
he willingly allowed me to paint on his fingernails =p




alright, we were doing our full dress rehearsal and here we are taking pics in the toilet
there u see joline me n crystal
maybe i shud just skip the tok abt the dressing..
it's very chinese like. some would say Vietnamese, while others would call out unto us 'maria maria, get me a bottle of water'






well, the 1st night of the concert wasn't that bad.
i got pretty upset during the 1st few pieces because i made mistakes in my favourite songs...
pretty irritated actually.
i mean i would wish to play well in my favourite pieces but on the actual day, the actual performance, i screwed up.
part of the reason is that my mind tend to go blank for no reason.
just can't seem to react fast. my sight reading just lags
but it's ok, the last few songs weren't as bad...



and today, i find ants amusing...
i didn't know their butts will rise when they encounter some danger...
in a sense, it also shows that they r alert of the danger
and because i was really bored before the show starts, i was flicking ants into the koi pond.
but drowning them wasn'tmy intention. i was ttrying to flick them to the spider web across the koi pond.
it's a pretty big web and i was hoping that the ants caught by the web would lure the spider out so that there will be a live geographic show to watch



then again, ants are also admirable as they work in a team.
these 3 ants are working on carrying a dead ant over to the other side of the koi pond
well, i wasn't heartless to flick it.. so i just let it pass
cute eh?

pictures and words!! yeah~

i can finally find a time to blog!! yes!
ok anyway, the things that have been keeping me bz was
- my school CO practice for the coming up concert on 3rd and 4th april
- work in true blue of coz
- tuition.. still looking for other tutors to replace me
- piano lessons

i'm trying to catch up with my
- friends
- practices needed for piano n cello
- sleep or rest
- family
- watching shows that i've been delaying

think it's quite a bother to get so bz with things every single day and lost touch with what was once important to u. it's like...
it's not longer u to be doing thethings u like or want.
all that u r doing is needed, fixed and dead...
my current schedule nv change.. it's always work to sch to tuition to piano lesson to church
it's like a robot manz... scheduled to do all that every wk
so i'm gonna quit working when my sip starts.
i'm gonna claim back my suppose-to-be life manz




this is a photo of what i was doing during orchestra prac
erm... the conductor was focusing on other sectionals so i was juz playing with those that was sitting behind me. haha... the double bass players
as u can see... its photo battle once again...



a rose from gerald!! that was on.. hmm.. when ah? last sat? think so ba..
ya... and he cut me 1 to bring home... yay!!
but too bad lah... this rose isnt the ones he grown himself
it's the matured ones when we bought the rose plant... oh well
i want white rose!!



haha.. couldn't help it.. so gay



my cute Ya'an has grown quite big...
and she can walk now!! she's like walking all around to every part of my house lah..
haha.. so cute



it was this day i went to many places with carmen and gerald
on that day, i was pei-ing carmen during her shift break so that she wont be bored like i was the last time
we went to clarke quay, esplanade, marina square, suntec... all on foot
wahahaha.. we r so powerful!!


this is a view of clarke quay


wahhhhh.... female version of stamford raffles ah!! fantastic right?
hahaha... wasted ah... if not for the bag i guess t really does look quite like stamford manz...
oh well, it was real fun there. hehe




ok here again, spotting snails under a bright daylight on one fine day going out for some occasion that i had now forgotten.
this snail is so huge!! look at my toes as compared to it manz.. so big!!




oh and this was what cui was doing during sermon
how sweet of her right? she drew me a family of faces...
kookoo she


oh yes!
this is fides!! wahahaha... finally get to post pics after my com got its wires connected
alright... this was her, dressing all that tomboyish roaming around compass point with me
wonder when will be her next time coming back to singapore and visit this beautiful gorgeous me... wahuhuh...
hehe

it's a new day, it's a new life, it's a new start

knowing that my grades seems to be quite troubling, there's no way of turning back the time

i'm taking things as it is

indeed, i'm very very upset with my results as well as how much effort i've put in

it juz makes me feel that all my hardwork has juz gone a waste

i know i'm missing the point here...

God has a plan for me but it's juz discouraging to see that what i've been struggling for isn't gonna anywhere successful...

so...
meeting liansi about it? to tok about results? relationships? walk with God?

i dunno man...

honestly speaking, liansi may be wise in choosing her route in life as well as advising ppl of their decisions

still, is this what u really want in the end?

taking the safest route that's not what u really want?

feeling so unsatisfied with my results becoz i know it's not the route i really wanted

besides, i have boundaries that juz disallows me to go my own path... the path i've always wanted where i can excel in

how great isnt it?

cui nat, i appreciate u guys concern...
n i hereby announcing that i m not well...

not well in everything...

in the jobs i do

in the academics i'm studying in now

in my family

in my health

thank God He's been there for me

He had already prepared a job for me which requires me to keep EATING

so that my health will not be a very big prob

i dunno what path has He prepared for me but ...

it's a new day today

it's a new start for the next sem

and a new life i'm living everyday

how i wished everything will just stop and let me take a break for a breathe of fresh air
i'm once again.. tired

pics time!!

this is a pic of gerald's prezzie to me on my birthday...
sth that he made long time ago that i finally decided to hang up only recently
it's butterflies not flowers for ur info

ducky bought me chocs!! unlike my bf right? wahuhuhuh...
gerald so evil... but anyway, those chocs r real expensive manz...
think it's a few bucks for just 3. it's alcoholic by the way



yay!! a drawing i drew with charcoal
well, i made it viewin negative image coz it looks cool. hehe



haha...
my bf's face



ok, was playing in spotlight the other day and this was what e 2 kookoos did
STFU = ?
Shut The F*** Up? how boring...
how bout See That Funny U... hmm... dunno what u can represent though =p


this is a pic of a tiny itsy bitsy snail i came across 1 night when i was heading home. isn't it cute?
i think it is.. it's so tiny, tt's y i decided to take a pic of it
anyway, it makes me wonder how it can actually travel so much with it's tiny body moving at such a slow pace.
it's amazing how much energy it has to move on to a new environment on a new day.
well, i can't resist to admire such lil creatures that God had created to remind us of our life on earth. so beautiful





and this is another pic of a big big snail i saw while on my way home the next night, again
ya noe, it's really encouraging to see it cuz by its appearance, it show a lot about how much it had experience in its life and how much danger it was put in given that any creature may just crush it due to their ignorance of their existence.
wow... didnt know u can learn so much from just a simple creature on earth right?




suguan's wedding... i wonder how r they right now..
muz be feeling all that happiness being together in their honeymoon period now...
wow.. juz can't believe one by one, ppl r starting to get married... wahuhuh...
feeling so old already cuz im already old enough to be invited to their wedding... wahuhuh...
she looks gorgeous isn't she? think her make-up was just right

true blue

alright... i guess my work started a lil too soon. was intending to find a new job during the 1st wk of hols but i think i already signed on 1.
today's my 1st day at work in true blue and it wasn't that bad as i would have expected it to be
lunch would be provided for the morn shift manz.. how cool
my fellow colleagues were frenly to carmen and me...
well, they do gossip abt our managers too.. how great to hear that on our 1st day right?


anyway, i have been thinking...
just a few things..
m i working too hard?
y m i working so hard?
i noe money isn't my drive to work... it's more like my family
but y work so hard?
even as i work, i think i've lost the purpose of doing the things that i do every day

holidays!!

yay!!
was having a gals day out with carmen yesterday
it was great but tiring cuz i've gotta walk a lot. then again, i've got tuition at night..
yet feel so happy going out shopping with the 2 ppl tt're most closest to me today
yes i muz admit i do have a low energy level. kinda get tired easily and quickly
dun really know y

alright... i think i'm so dead once again whenever hols come.
hmmm.. let's just say i've got problems with my time management

i want so much yet i have limited time to actualy commit myself to them

hmm..

tuition twice a wk

cello prac 3 times a wk

i've just gotten a job - waitressing again

band n church to spend time prac in

hmmm... how to manage? i wonder too..

i've been studying

1st things 1st...
i wanna complain about how i actually spent this whole wk.
i've been studying n studying to the extend that nth else could get into my head. the only thing tt's left circling my tots was ' hols, Hols, HOLS!!!' ah... can't help it when too much info has been forced into my head.
i wanna complain that y can't hols come sooner!! wahuhuh... i wan hols... i wan slp... i wan watch tv... i wan walk walk with frens... etc
hmm... k.. nvm... i'm juz whining


ok... so how did God answered me when i asked for a break today...
ya noe cui nat n hu ever in hgpc tt's reading my blog
i left early from church juz to head home n study right? tt's the answer i gave u guys after leaving reluctantly.
i did went to study, but not home. was around tampines studying with aliff.
he lah... say wanna study together. i heard the 'study' word and was like telling myself i shud be hardworking. and so i went
after studying for few hrs, i decided to head home and SLP! but just when i crossed the traffic junction, some fellow was running towards me.
u noe i wasn't wearing contact lens right? i can't see a single shit tt's beyond er.. at most 100m?
then i realized it was Gerald. he was heading to his fren's house to do some studying, together with wai n amanda.
without a word, he dragged me along to study with them...
wahuhuhuhuh... my beauty slp gone... juz like tt...
all becoz of tt 'study' word


dunno y it's so coincidental, most likely God planned it,
i haven't even contacted Gerald since the beginning of the day and we don't even noe wat exactly was our plans or schedule for the day, and then Pop... he appeared in front of me...
n so i forced myself to study n study n study...

it's a crazy day.
a crazy wk of studying too

last night's fun

alright... last night was fun!! although i didn't do any cooking... hehe
well, i didn't go for sunday school because i couldn't catch up for my piano pieces.
i had to practice in church because my piano just can't make it, and since i thought there might be a lack of time to practice, i had to do that during sunday school.
i think the travelling to wai's place was real long. and yes carmen, we were that dumb to not take the train.
i guess that thought didn't cross my mind at all since i'm still living in the world of buses...
and it was real fun to play risk together with 4 other players!!
wow... Marcus + wai + Gerald + Carmen + me = 5 players!! yay.... i pass my maths with flying colours!
it's a pity i didnt take any photos of it.
then again, it's meant to be a reunion dinner cum celebration for Gerald's 18th birthday. hope he enjoyed it.
actually, no fair loh... some1 got Bombay sapphire as present loh. that's it.
i will sure steal some 1 day



just did some calculation on my own finance and stuff
realized that i can still survive!! yes!... thanks to the hongbaos i received this chinese new year
hee... i'm really glad to have my closest frens to take care of me last year manz... really thanks alot for the help you guys have showered me. i know i did nag abit lah... that's because i didn't want you guys to spend too much on me mah.
mainly, thx Carmen and Gerald


check this out!

valentine's day

what can i say about it?
i've got lessons to attend today manz...
i've got 2 presentation and a test to do... wow...
but at least i enjoyed 1 lesson which was my art lesson. haha... these are the views of my finished master piece. hopefully i get to top the class again. wahahaha




front view



left view



right view


oh.. this was juz an extra... though it's a cute pen... but i dun get to own it!!.. wahuhuhuh


so... my valentine? hmm... too bad there weren't any pics of it. either way, i spent it with Carmen and later Gerald. he got me a bottle of stars while i got him a bottle of scrolls... dunno how we can end up giving the same gift but in each stars or scrolls were written words... wanna know more? ask me again when you get to see me loh... hee
but how we celebrate it together, i guess... it's meant to be kept confidential. no?

bai nian pics!!!

ok.. this was taken when i was going to bai nian in gerald's n marcus's place. 9th february 2008. because my mum insisted that gerald should be the one to bai nian before i head to his house to bai nian, it kinda took him an hour to reach my house. i didn't tell him to come my house for visitation but told him to come fetch me to his house. he's got a gut feeling that he'll be coming to my house instead for visitation. thenhe reconfirmed with me of what was going on head back to his to change his dressing as well as preparing oranges for the bai nian. haha... thankfully, nothing really happened when he arrived because my bros woke at that hour and chose to hang around with their pyjamas in the living room. i guess they were afraid that there might be a possibility of a chaotic conversation over the table. i'm really glad that they were there to help me through... after that, i head off to his house to bai nian.

this was taken today!! see those funky ah ma in the pic? hahaha... 1 with chiongsam and the other in ah ma t-shirt trying to balance the guitar on her thigh. well.... though it was a nice pose, then again, it doesn't seem like it did a good job in hiding their age. hahahhaha...

oh... another pic taken today, featuring an ah pek trying to teach some1's son to play drums. guess he's trying his best to pass his skills to some1. mayhap this kid could be his successor. hehe... kookoo... by the way, this kid is the son of michael lao shi.

and then every1 eating in elicia's place!!! muahaha... love the kfc chicken!! wahahaha

in the pic featuring dekai and johnny taing their gay pose along a corridor near a bus stop. guess they just couldnt get enough of themselves ba... hehe but they look quite cool heh?

shuai right? think it's my camera skills lah... aiyo... buay tahan

another 1 of my masterpiece. prety pic right? too bad the ackground spoils the whole pic. if ohly we can do some touch up on the background with the photoshop, creating a bike driven by johny and the couple wearing some hot tight leather wear, think it'll be damn nice! aiya... think i should stop fantasizing already....

this is a pic of acbc = act cool buay cool
hahahaa...

my mask

ever wondered what happened to my mask??
alright, here's an update of it


here's a pic of my mask before painting it
it looks like a pig because of the nostrils... i'm so sad..
but oh well, this may juzt prove that i'm not that pretty afterall... wahuhuh...
muz put some make-up to cover my ugly face


alright, here's the painted 1
yeah~ i guess i can understand now... wahuhuh...
i'm really not that pretty afterall.. shall hide my face in a paper bag
either that or i do something with my make-up skills and start putting some
wahuhuh... juz kidding






alright, shall sidetrack a bit today
tot i took a pretty interesting photo of baby Ya'An and i should be posting it since she so adorable!!
goodness... i wish to have such a pretty, cute and obedient baby
anyway, it just so happen that i was rushing for school one morning and there popped up this purple earring that was given by nat
well, you know me, i had to try putting it on baby just to tease her
haha...




haha... isn't she cute??
she's so pretty... getting jealous already.
babies are so innocent that they won't even know they've been teased on. well, in the 1st place, they can't talk and knows nuts about our language. they won't know the word backstab, jealousy, envy or even depressed over matters, at least not at the age of 2 months. i guess that's the reason why they attract people's attention. the kind of innocence that hardly found in any1 older than 3 years old. guess, staying too long on earth will make each of us complicated... wow...




guess who's place!!?
now guess hu's fingers =p

i shall write!!

yes yes!! i'm finally typing an entry for my blog...
alright, it's monday afternoon and i'm here waiting for my mls lesson to start in 30 mins time. since i can't do anything much with this pathetic school computer that's only capable of providing internet access to blogs, searches and emails, i kinda figured that typing for my blog would be something useful as compared to hours staring into space or rather into an ugly and demoralizing sight of my school.

i'm super blessed with friends around me that kept me moving on even though it doesnt seem like there's hope in the situation i m in. i'm super thankful for my husband!!! she's so sweet to provide me shelter, warmth, entertainment and many other stuff. i'm aware that i'm not spending enough quality time with her. hmmm... i can't wait for holidays to come so that we could all go to wherever places we always wanted to go chill out. of course there are other friends of mine that do provide me with my needs, such as darrell, aliff (at times) and others i couldn't think of right now.

apart from getting myself independent in my basic needs, my family problem still stands. this time, it had gotten worse. no idea where it'll lead but my bros have been having a very bad feeling about it. no doubt they are quite certain that this year would be a year for a turn, yet it's the attitude towards my own family that i'm more concern of. this part i'll just have to leave it hanging cause it's kinda confidential.

and i'm announcing that i'm contented even though i have many worries. so people, i'm ok! haha... c'mon, i won't wanna get exhausted this fast. i'm happy in my current relationship and m still looking for a christian mentor to guide me on this path. wonder who will be suitable. with God as my provider, it's no problem! yeah... love the lil miracle God blessed me on yesterday!

how to make brownie... hmmm

saturday!! finally...

the audit meeting

in preparation for another meeting with our auditees this time round.
yes! we r the auditor and here's how we looked when we r kinda preparing for the meeting
i was sadly, the lead auditor.
the easiest job yet its a role that's easy to spot mistakes on
yep.. dun hink i score well for that meeting.... was tokking too fast once again...


our auditees


this is a pic of our team. the auditors

the grade 5 theory results (Wednesday)

ya noe y that expression?
she juz saw her results n was super unhappy with 1 section
oh well... so m i sad for her
still.... she passed!!

wahuhuh... look at that expression man...
scolding me for tt part... wahuhuh...
what can a non-graduate teacher like me explain leh?
well... but she still passed!!!



her cert



the cert with my name on it!! wahahaha

wai's birthday celebration (Friday)

haha... kookoo wai with his so called '1st cake' for the night
there's a fortune cookie presented by carmen



his '2nd cake'
i guess we had enough of all tt candle thingy already
tot toothpicks will make a nice replacement of it. haha\



ok, i noe it'spretty odd to actually celebrate in the kitchen but...
oh well, he spotted the cake before we even presented it to him
what a waste isn't it?